Heaven's Loft.

2009-12-04T19:36:00.006+08:00

Open Me Up And You Will See A Gallery Of Broken Hearts

You are killing me, and ripping me into shreds. You walked into my life but all I know is pain. I tried so hard not to let you go. Your good look was the start of my miseries. You can't hear it that I am in pain, you can't see it that I am in pain, you can't feel it when I am in pain. All you ever know is just about yourself. I feel emotionally abused and verbally abused. I don't cry because I don't want you to see the tears. Cause if I were to shed a single tear for you, I am losing the battle. Outside, I may seem happy but inside there’s alot of things that I will never tell you. You always say I don't understand you. However, it seems that you DON'T understand me. Or you never bothered to. Soon, you will see it, this pain that you caused. Soon, you will hear it, this pain that you caused. Soon, you will feel it, this pain that you caused. The colours are turning grey, I never wanted it to be this way. I loved you so much, I'm lost without your touch. I would never let you down but you just left me on the ground and didn't look back. Everything from the beginning was a mistake. I should have known this would have happened. Why did I get myself involved. I might not be in this confused state right now. Save me the hassle of being hurt and always being insecure. I guess dragging myself in this relationship, indeed as what my friends concluded, are somewhat true. Hurt, pain and betrayal. But the longer I dragged, I can't let go. I want to go out and see the flowers. I want to have a life where I can actually feel. Hahaha, jeez, no point in grieving, after all this is the path I chose. I chose this life for myself. I can't blame it on anyone but myself. I feel really depressed. Your friends, they are getting on my nerves, soon. What a whole loads of craps! Like I mentioned, I regretted. I regretted the moment I met you, if I hadn't. My life might be slightly better being single. I am exhausted of being paranoid. I am exhausted of trying to make me the only one in your heart. I am exhausted of being blinded by hatred and fury. I am exhausted of taking in your bullshit. And I am exhausted of your deception and lies. Don't say you love me, if you don't fucking say it right from the bottom of your heart. Because lies hurts more than you ever know it. I don't want you to take love as a game to toy around with feelings.In love, someone will win. Someone will lose. Watching you walk away, just with me alone. Drowsed with shame. I am afraid to play the game. Ashamed of letting you do this to me. When you say you love me, it makes me cringe with uneasiness inside because I never know whether it is the truth or not. Now I am just a puppet, dangling from the strings that you control.I want to scream, I want to shout, I want to cry till my well run dry. I lose control when I hold too tight. And when I fall asleep, she plagued my dreams. 30 bits of glasses become my teeth. I lose my mind when I lose control, my own heart is afraid of an attack and he thinks it is foolish. I want to throw it all away even without knowing what I am throwing. I want to run like a coward to the door. It hurts to know that I am in love with my doubt. All he knows is to leave me in the ditch and never really intend to understand how I feel. I want to be strong. I want to face my demons. I don't want to cry to show him my weakness because that would mean I am surrendering. I loved you every second, of every hour and of every days. Adored every smile you gave and how close you would stay. I had decided to make your statement true. I've gone ahead and cheated on you. I actually thought that you loved me, I guess I was wrong. I trusted and love you, now I don't know. I don't if I trust you, if I love you. Everything is just so confusing, all different stories. Why won't you tell me the truth? How could you do this to me? I would have never thought of doing it to you and then denying that it had happened.
There's no more 'I love you' back to me anymore. No more late nights, just you and me. There isn’t any weekends getaway. Or early arrival on holidays. Now, it's just his games or his friends that need him. I should have seen this coming. I thought I can change a cheater but a cheater never wins.

2009-12-01T21:50:00.003+08:00

This is the most horrendous week I’ve went through ever since the day I lost my wallet. Gahhhhh. What a pity. It carries my identity card, ez-link, staff pass, name tag, lots of complimentary tix, nets card, pictures, working schedule dates and everything that I ever needed. ): FML. Now I’m praying real hard that the person who found my wallet would be a kind soul. (:
It has definitely been tough for me to go through all these shits, but I'm still here. It didn't exactly brought about positive end results, or side effects for that matter. One day, I'm telling myself that it would all be over, the next day I don't really care if it would ever be over cause I've resort to other solutions. It may not be all positive, but that's how I want it to be, that's how I choose life to be for me.

Back to today. Mum’s ezlink made me so paiseh when I was boarding the bus to school. It was left with a pathetic 6cents. And since I only got cash notes with me, I had no choice but to get down the bus and call my lifeline. With dad’s help, he asked me to cabbed down to school. Freaking cost me 6bucks -.-
Apart from that, CA today was quite okayy. Gahhhhh. Sharul would be laughing when he reads this. Heeee. Angie lee is so smelly and noisy today.

The long awaited holidays would be here soon. This means, more working days which equals to more money moneyy. ((:
And ohh, Christmasss SALESSSSS, do come fast, do come fast. I need some retail therapy badly.

Goodnight sweetworld.
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2009-11-26T23:40:00.003+08:00

A GREAT TALKER, A GREAT LIAR.

Trust is a fragile thing, once earned, it affords us tremendous freedom. But once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover. Of course the truth is, we never know who we can trust. Those we're closest to can betray us, and total strangers can come to our rescue. In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves. It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned. You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough. Be very careful about who you trust as you just might find that those who you placed all your trust will in time use it as a game and hurt you. So never trust anyone other than yourself .

Do you know what girls really want ? They want real conversations and real love . We want cute dates together , nothing expensive . The truth is we only want to be with you . We want to hold hands and lie beneath the stars . We wanna be able to say something stupid and not worry about it . We want a guy that will love us for nothing being us. And I know that deep inside me, that you’re NOT that one guy.

I FUCKING NEED TIME TO HEAL OVER EVERY SHITS OF YOURS.
your worthless, you are a failure, you are a liar and I hate you.

I HATE THE FACT THAT YOU SAY THAT YOU MISS ME BUT YOU DO NOTHING ABOUT IT.
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2009-11-25T15:33:00.009+08:00

Schools is so DEAD yesterday. Everyone came for just a 2hour grooming lesson. Waittt, that's not even school. Today's WORSE. See, that's what I meant when I said I ABHOR school to the core. CA is just around the corner and even the teachers are not doing anything. This just sucksss.

Do You Look At Yourself As The Sum Of Your Weakness And Failures?
Most of us have a problem with our self image. I think the root of the problem is that we do not really know who we are. Typically our self image is based on the opinion of others. Growing up, we have been labelled and branded by a lot of names, mostly based from our weakness and failures.
You will never amount to anything.
“Don’t let your biggest obstacle be yourself.”
Why do we constantly need reaffirmation to feel good about ourselves? Snap out of it please.

♥♥♥

Just a quick thought about you and I. What we have is simple. I think you're afraid I need it to be so much more. And me, I just want everything to stay as it is. Each breath of mine is spent gasping suspension hoping nothing changes but I am certain it won't because you make me believe everything can be good. You will always be the sun-sized yes in my world of no. You happened and happens rather than almost-happened. Despite my fascination with the impossible, you remind me that sometimes, it's all possible. Xoxo.
Love,everyday is a surprise. What luck is this to wake up and he'd be there and surprises of mood, of depth, shifting. I never know what might happen. All quiet before the storm. In admission of my own flaws. I am never bored. I always know why I am there. I wake up and I am lucky. Since we got together, my heart kinda stops every time I read/hear his name. Even if the text isn't referring to him or coming from the lips of a stranger while on the bus. The smallest of butterfly wings, folding, to muffle any unexpected excitement. From the first time I met him, I was so eager, being just eager is an understatement, tummy churning. I was late. My eyes sieved through the crowd and when our eyes met, 2 metres apart, I thought to myself, hi or hello? Hug or shake hands? 42 months later, today, I still cannot even explain how good it feels to look up across a room and see him standing there. Happy 42nd my dear boy :>
But of cos there are things that you do that can make me tick really bad but when I set aside time to sit down and count my blessings for all these months, the good always overpowers the bad. I love the way you genuinely love me quietly, wholeheartedly. I know you do.
So please don't stray, don't ever go away.

Lastly, Happy Hari Raya Haji. ^^

2009-11-23T17:45:00.003+08:00

This week flew pretty fast. I didn't realize i had not blogged for a week? Or more? A teeny weeny bit of stuffs which i should pen down here.

Yet another day in daze. If only I travel in speed, I'll move on faster than that lightning. I don't see why I should be in one spot, when I can actually move around to loosen things up. I'm having a seriously hard time waking up in the morning during school days. And that means, it affects my attendance for the classes that starts pretty early. I have no idea why but I think I need more sleep! Brain isin't working either but trying my best to get my mind to serious shit when I'm in school. No more bitching, laughing like a goon, no more acting all funny. Ella and Sharul, you hear me?

And I was thinking, what if I have the moon, the sun and the star together among the clouds? Which one should I pick?

I promised to post up my pictures of my outing with B, Wafi brother’s wedding, Rizal, Swensen’s ice-cream buffet, and much more but I am too lazy because there's plenty of them& my computer will definitely froze while uploading. Will just see my mood then.

Sometimes silence is bliss, but most of the time it cuts you deep. I just stay on and enjoy whatever that is left. Painful to go through but there is no other way. Some things fall randomly just like passing clouds but when the sun is shinning straight at you, embrace every inch of heat upon your skin. Phases are just phase that are bound to happen but mistakes are best to happen once not twice.

Damn if I could change my life right now, I would not be this deep underground. It feels like I'm gasping for air, as if I was being buried alive. I'm twirling around in this massive whirlwind, going in circles then being thrown to some redundant land that nobody knows about. I crawl to find shelter but the land is so bare with brown soil that I'm left stranded, waiting for another powerful bustle to sweep me off my feet again. Hoping that I'm being thrown to another place where nature exist. Bare brown soil is nothing great to see, I thought to myself. The moment that thought strike me, I thought again. "You need soil to grow nature". "Would I go back in time to get back to where I first landed? Or move on to discover that whole new world?"

My life has been pretty silly lately. But having the close ones around would definitely make you smile wide. I just happen to think and spill it out to my family, friends and Rizal that there's something missing in my life. All I know, I was there when you needed me. But now, you've been pulled by some other party which left us unsaid. Someday I pray and hope that you realized whatever you're doing is right.
God bless.

Okay, fast forward to today, school is vv draggy. This time, its really boring and its driving me nuts. The lessons are getting boring everyday. But WFB is the worst, i can only be very attentive for the first 15mins and aft that, I’ll bury my head down with my hands covering my face. TPS and SVE and LIFESKILL is boring too. Everything in school is boring, period.

Ok I don't wanna keep on rambling but I'll tell you about how school goes about. Its been raining lately, I like the rain, more hours of beauty sleep. As usual, school's dead with a very countable number of students even possible to count them with my fingers and toes. Gahhh. And everyone would be eating in school since the walking distance out is sucha killer adding to the rainy days too, I've been spending heaps of my penny on food. Two word, bloody pig. Sickening faces of lecturers day by day, from super old ass whiny whore hag to a paranoid students and schoolmates. It turns out to something to laugh at and not knowing that I will be having an upcoming test, soon. With those kinda lecturers, geez God..........

I think I'm going to hell.

Not forgetting, I had my first ice-cream buffet today. The first plate has already spoiled my mood to continue eating. Hahas. Sharul is already dying in front of me.
Thanks Sharul, for being a great friend today. Yummy yummy. (:

Okayy cut me some slack, its quite surprising to have me updating on what has been happening. Enough already.

2009-11-13T13:42:00.002+08:00

I opened up the entry box not knowing what to talk about. I just know that I wanna talk about something. Anything. So let's see what triggers my fingers. I'm now spending my day with a cup of hot chocolate accompanied by the down tempo playlist on my Itunes.

School is so so DEAD and I don't like it at all. Fact is, that I had to do lotsa catch ups with the stuffs I missed cause most of the time; I wasn’t paying attention I class. I hate school, I mean who doesn't. It cracks my brain, eats up my braincell and everything bad. Oh no way I'm going to heaven. I want to escape from reality, bet my life would be as pleasant.

So, anyway, school started so so late today and it ended way way early. And also, I’m gonna meet B, later to accompany him with his shopping. This is one of the reason why life suck too. Why don't we have a money tree, life's gonna be GREAT. Just pluck them from the trees whenever we need it. Or maybe having my parents, who prints heaps of money $_$ I'll wouldn't even be here updating cos I can't be bothered for cyber world already and just shop till there's no more things to buy. Dear God, please help me.

Apart from that, my new Singtel Mio has been showing idealistic movies lately. 13 going on 30, Halloween, 17 seconds, caught, daddy’s day care, anger management, baby genius, boys over flowers and so much much more ... I’ve been hogging on to the TV much more than the food nowadays. I can even press pause and play anytime when the movie is playing. I think its PMS but still, if only life was THAT simple; You meet someone, there's chemistry, you start caring about that person, you fall in love and you don't let anything get in the way of that. Why must love be a scary thing? Why can't people just be in love and see it for what it is? Why must you cloud something so beautiful with matters that aren't insuperable? I really don't get it. If you're in love and that person decided to love you back, consider yourself the luckiest person on earth. I don't get why people intend on living life alone when you know there's someone out there who wants to live your life with you. We're human; we're built to need someone with us no matter how much we try to deny it. Maybe this is my idealism talking but really, people should give the good in life a chance. I think? Hah.

And life? SUCK. I'm done for today.

2009-11-08T20:56:00.012+08:00

Hello screwthatchips, my Saturday was monkey merry ZOOper fun. Thanks for asking. How’s yours?
So finally, Firman Helmet decided to meet us at 3pm instead of 1pm. While waiting for the two superstarsss to arrive, the rest of us bought tickets for Jennifer’s Body and had Ben&Jerry while waiting for the movie to starts. Walk our way from plaza sing to taka for dinner at Seoul Garden and all of us were ZOOper duper donkey full. Blurpp! Afterwards, slack outside taka to chill, rest our stomach, and also took pictures. ((: Home sweet home at around 11pm.
Today was -.- My day started off real BAD. I was like omg omg omg all the way to work. Part of the reason is, I only get 3 hours of sleep before work. I was so so so sleepy while on my way to work that I can feel myself being so high while walking towards the 138 bus stop. Won’t elaborate much about it.
But, work was definitely v v v okayy for me today. ((: Didn’t regret coming to the zoo to stand for a god damn freaking 6 hours. Even though I’m at SBE, I can’t stop myself ogling (ggaahhhh) at the 2 handsome and cute boys over at the entrance. Hur hur ^^
So cuteee till I can’t stop myself smiling at them especially when both of them are standing together. *wide smileeee*
PEACE.LOVE.ICE-CREAM.
I really don't care what you think. Basically I just said don't fight with me which also equates to - don't text me. I won't reply. Does it make any sense to you when you say you do not want to fight but yet you do things that will agitate people? No right? So much I want to scream at your face but I know it will defeat the purpose cos your ego is so thick that you forgot how to feel. So please ehh, let's leave each other alone k? I won’t call or text you and so do you okayy. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND HAVE FUN IN MY LIFE. THANK YOU VERY NICE.

2009-11-06T22:19:00.018+08:00

Cut me some slack, I've been busy. But, fret not, screwthatchips will be back! But before that, I shall update on what's been on my mind lately.
We're nearly halfway through November, and oh boy I know it is not too early to say and I can't wait for the year to end. 2009 hasn't been good since the start, day 1. Shall not elaborate the details here else I'll defeat the point of having a private journal, having a superman and lovely friends to share all my secrets right? But then again, that is the bottom line. 20o9 suck balls. Part of the reason is, I’m in ItsTheEnd college.
2009 STARTS, now that's that.
For those of you who knows what has been going on, that's probably because you guys are special (: And for those of you who have no slightest clue at all, continue reading. But for those of you who knows no shit, but has been figuring out and spreading words around your way, its time you get a life. (and this refers to some of you who have been making assumptions regarding my personal life, tsktsk)
Okayy, things has been really crazy for the last couple of days. Things I've never thought of happening happened. But that's life, expect the unexpected.
It’s been a pretty hectic week but I know that should be no excuse for the lack of updates. I work my ass off last weekend, had 4 straight days of school and ending the weekday with a 'nearly' perfect Friday, with pics to come from all of them. You try sorting through roughly 300 photos and selecting the good ones, editing the not so good ones, deleting the absolutely terrible ones and getting them ready to put it up here and also print it. So for all those things I've gone through, I doubt blogger can stand the huge number of my pictures here.
Nowadays, people do things as they like and never once think about the other individuals feelings.
Fine, some of my problems are tiny ones, but the different is .. I don't have a hell lot of self esteem/self confidence left in myself to go through all. So shut up and drive. Right now, I'm still trying to pull myself back together. I know who I can count on, and who are just for show. I'm still not that comfortable opening up to everyone but I've tried, and it felt 20x better just knowing that someone is listening to you, like finally?

Skip that, my life hasn't been up to its BEST yet. But I know slowly it will, time flies and just let time tell everything. & very sure, some of you whom are close to me knows that I am very very pissed with insertnamehere for some reasons, well all I can say is keep the comments to yourself. Can't miss this point out, thanks too, to my dearest best ’big spender’ friend for backing me up. You know who you are!
Apart from that, life been too kind to me I guess. By having the best of the best boyfriend in the world will still keep me smiling forever, definately we're cruising strong never stop loving (HAHA) and predicting of some good times coming is not too bad for an 18 going on 19 girl's life. Sigh, actually I do have some thrash to go through but I got over it and I learnt to stand up on my two feet. Not pulling another individual into my puddle of mess. One who always got my back is the superboy whom sometimes never fail to cheer me up each time I need someone to confide to. You're too nice, sweet and everything else, I friggin love you everyday. Second is my bestfriends, you know who you are!

2009-10-27T19:53:00.004+08:00

You know, I never saw a reason in not letting someone know how you feel. How else will you know how things are gonna turn out? Things can't always happen the way you want them to, but if they do, wouldn't they be the greatest gift? And if they don't, just carry on with your life. You were perfectly fine doing so before.
Damn I'm doing the whole incessant rambling thing again. But I feel like I wanna pull back; take a breath and slow down.

Hello screwthatchips, you must have been wondering how am I coping with life/school and work? Hard to answer, no kidding. Don't smile.

School, school, school. This term is gonna be a rollercoaster ride for me, really hectic. So many assignments to kill yet so little time. But I like this semester’s module heaps. I'm turning into a geek real soon but heyy, I am all ready to face shits because I wanna work hard to get to the path I want to be in. Don't wanna lose out lotsa things this year. Somehow, 2009 is cruising pretty smooth.

I have been eating and eating heedlessly these past few days. What came over me, I don't know now. My head is throbbing, my stomach is churning. Anyway just as I had promised myself I didn't eat during the clock strike 8pm onwards. Not at all, but I didn't consume large amounts of food ;D

Shoving all that aside, I'm bored and sick of everything that happened yesternight. I just wanna lay on the bed all day and contemplate. Think of the past few days, think of today. Also, for what is to come. I don't fancy any form of enjoyment nowadays apparently I'm not in the mood and I have no idea why so but if something really is mothereffing fun that allows me to luxuriate and take comfort in, then maybe I would reconsider it except from spending time with my fellow friends. They made me smile, really.

Ok peepole, time to start missing me already. Goodnight sweet world.
xoxo
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2009-10-26T13:30:00.006+08:00

(more pics at fb.)

After eons... We're BACKKKK :DDDD

I'll never trade you sugarbugs even for a billion bucks.

Maybe, on a second thought, yes, than bring you guys go shoppinggg!

Last Friday, since class was cancelled, being Anizah, I ditched my Ella and my Rizal to have a fucking blast time killed with the loveliesss. Hur hur ^^ Everyone was so eager to see each other (or is it just me?) and Huda, being the stargazer was late as ever. She should turn over a new leaf for this. Yes I know I would be smiling and thanking God about it (teehee). Fridaynight was helluva good merry fun. Chillaxx outside taka. Gossip girls on the loose with the above soul in the picture and then having Buyong with his ever so funny ass shits about everything. I hate telling things in detail but it means I am having fun. Hubba hubba. :)

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Today was a little bit too ironic. Its Monday and its a no school day for me. Had initial plans but I had to cancel them. Burnt the day just like that but its alright cause I still have tomorrow. Sighhh. Been long since I get my hands active and pen down about what's shaking in my life. I've started school soo long ago. I must say, first day of school is sucha bore. I'm quite surprise to be saying this though. It didn't went well and its only Monday. Wait till the ridiculous assignments and cracking of brain starts. Besides that, so much laughter on my first day which did brighten up my day since morning. It was bearable though. I'm making a point to be real organized and start my assignments sooner than before so I wouldn't be struggling my way up. Lesson learned.

This past weeks has been really hectic. Things come and go one after another. There's no turning back, and sometimes I really wish life come in package with a Stop button. I think it would come in handy to just hit Stop. Unfortunately, we're in no 'Click' world. However, with that being said, I'm living life with no regrets. Despite all the low tides, I'm a soldier braving myself to the finishing line.A lot has happened, and there's no way (I think & I hope) I'm ever going to look back. I will, once I'm ready, let it out here even if it might tarnish my name, for myself to look back and never repeat the same mistakes and for you to learn from mine.

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2009-10-24T19:44:00.012+08:00

Every 24th of the month, we turned a year older. And I am glad that we made it this far surprisingly cause I've caused so much problems and tiffs between us. But indeed, we stayed strong and just pull it through together. Time pass oh so slowly, yet the tremble of my feet walks fast. Faster than that canonball shooting right at me. The speed of sound swooshed pass me and I managed to catch it. There goes another day of hopes and dreams being crushed. But one thing for sure, I am contented having you in my life. For standing by me whenever I need you, for being the shoulder to cry on and wiped my tears away, for giving me warm hugs when I feel insecure and unsafe, for sacrificing things for me, for assuring me almost daily just to make me feel secured, for singing me the favourite songs I love to hear, for making me laugh like there's no tomorrow. There's heaps but what matters most is for the love care trust you've given me. Thank you so much and you know I can never get enough of you. Happy 41th Monthsary, I love you my smoker boy. xoxo

If only the sky is blue, I'll be wearing smiles across my face. Painted with glimmering happiness by romance. I wish I have someone to run around with every time I'm alone. To share the thrill and spend hours by just looking at each other under the sun. Hand in hand, with no regrets and troubles. I've always yearn for those typical fairytale you see in the movies. Where you lose your sense of direction just being with that someone. But who doesn't right? It's too perfect, its too good to be true. And at the very corner of my heart, I believe my life's cruising just the way I want it to be. For having SOMEONE you love so much, is a bliss. My charmer, my boncet dwarf, my precious gem, my ever so sweet bub, I love you Rizal.

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2009-10-19T20:02:00.005+08:00

S E X

Men are frustrated with women because they never want sex.

Women are frustrated with men because they always want sex.

By Nature men are made to seek as much sex as they can get, so they can spread their seed wider.

By Nature women are made to seek as many admirers as they can get, so they can make a better choice and get the best seed.

Men seek quantity - women seek quality. This is why men seek sex and women seek love.

Men fall in love through sex - women fall in sex through love.

All of this happens on the unconscious level - we do NOT realize what’s going on.

So true isin't it? Lol. Well to some extent. Okay so spread the love (& sex)! :D

My bf is a fucking smoker and a fucking liar. Fucktard.

**Ohh. I tried my veryyy first puff puff todayy. Yucksss.

2009-10-19T19:36:00.009+08:00

"You look great. Besides you will miss them when they're gone.."

Friendship.
Teach me how to keep it going and staying strong.

Friendship isn't always easily described.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

Does that simple sms tells you how much I've been missing you.
Yess. We do fight at times but heck, we always make up right.
Take care, my dear friend. xoxo.
See you soon, cause I've got shitloads to talk to you about.
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2009-10-18T22:47:00.010+08:00

Hello screwthatchips, today anizah work from 8 - 3 than bath, meet Rizal, eat ben&jerry, ride Kawasaki and off to town for another round of an impromptu crazy shopping spree with Rizal. We shop like crazy until the rack of clothes from Topman roboh and Anizah was sooo paiseh and speechless sampai tutup muke pakai tangan. Hahaha. Rizal still can laugh-laugh maciammm laa klakar sangat gtu. Babi kau. Rizal took forever just to try on one top and bottom while Anizah wait outside the changing room maciam batu. Babi kau. Go Dorathy Perkins, abe feeling-feeling want to buy lots of clothes but at last, still buy one top and bottom. All Rizal fault laa. Altogether Ani-Zal spent around 150+++ bucks. Gila babi. All Rizal fault laa.

Boring already at town, go Marina Square and window shop. Suddenly this boyy uhh, so fickle minded. From this one boyy to this one girll, both of them suddenly became soo fickle minded. Gila babi. Went in and out of Creative shop to look at iTouch, iPod, Nano and Zen for as long as we were there. I think the salesgirl also can recognize us already. At lastt, Ani-Zal decided to get for each of us a Creative Zen Mozaic. It took us veryyy veryyy long to come to this decision. Gila babi anjing. Spent another 200++ bucks just like that on this kind of thing. All Rizal fault laa. Happy happy already, balik kampong early cause tomorrow school start at 8. Gila babi. How to wake up siaaa.

Thanks lovely for today. ((: Wo Ai Ni.
And don’t teach me how to smoke again okayy. ((:

2009-10-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

a riddle, wrapped around a mystery, inside a bitch.

Since today’s class is cancelled due to some stupid reasons, I went out with my spongebob again, for a crazy shopping spree! ☺☺☺

Let me just say for the record that I think Ite College is the dumbest idea ever invented. Because school is getting boring, even with the greatest company around. They do keep me alive but sometimes it isn’t how I want it to be. Okayy, worst part is, I don't understand anything from what Mrs Angie Lee is teaching us in class. Too much free time I guess? Screw them.

Later on in this post, its gonna get a teeny bit redundant practically cos I've nothing else to say. I just had this urge to blog but when I'm in, my mind totally gone blank. But anyways, for the sake of you readers, I will just post some noogies.

I'm having a seriously hard time getting used to the fact that the vacation is over and I have to get out of bed every morning to go to school. I know this is soo soo soo yesterday to whine about but who cares. The upcoming vacations is so called drawing near but I've no idea when, I'm just saying.. I can't wait for it! Hubba hubba.
Life has been a horrendous cow. Just some people who's able to brighten up my day with messages and random calls, I envy you. TIME, isn’t my bestfriend anymore because my plan of staying there to work till the rest of my life (okay this is a lie, hahaha) was backfired. Huda, kill yourself biatch.

Before I continue about my life and never stop whining, I think you people should stop reading and hit the sack! Goodnight sweet world.
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2009-10-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

Merci beaucoup loveee.

I've been doing good. Life's been kinda quiet, but I'd have it no other way.
School has finally resumed and I can’t help myself falling in loveee with my new timetable. Friday, 11-12. (??) But still, can't express enough how much I abhor school, and I'm still wondering why I take up Events earlier. I've got high aims and expectations for school this time round which I really have no other choice now but to pull up my socks to graduate and move on to a Polytechnic. It feels really disappointing to actually know you're somehow not on the right path of something, and to actually see yourself not progressing and not doing well at it.

Apart from school, life itself has been bittersweet. Thanks lovely for being there to hear my non-stop whining about some friends and let me blow my anger out to you about stuffs. I love you, I really do. Thanks to you, once again. ((:

I gotta get up early tomorrow too. Sigh.
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2009-10-13T09:46:00.003+08:00

Being part of PAYM, doing major cheeseballs festivals for community club was definitely cool, projects was dead ass tiring but its worth my time. Cause our group won the 400bucks and that means we were on the 3rd place out of the whole 7 beoings whom we are competing. ((: Nothing can explain how fun it was and I'm hoping to be part of it again next year! :D I'm proud of myself and my own group but I'm still...
Physically drained and emotionally stable.

School starts at 2 and end at 5 today. I'm so dead beat, I went to bed before midnight and that's way too shit early. But I'm just so tired. My feet have never felt so fucking sore. But money, do come in fasssssssst. :D

Apart from that, I’m meeting my boyyyfriend tomorrow. Finally, I can feel a breath of fresh air again after all that we‘ve been through these past few weeks. I will feel the euphoria again, having us cuddling, kissing, smiling, laughing and everything nice. We’re gonna have a good talk and we’ll end the day with a GOOD huggg. (hehehe)
Thanks to my boyyyfriend for being there to hear me out crying and whining about how tired and angry I was, xoxo.

And then.. here comes the most redundant paragraph just to make this post longer. I can say I've pretty much blurted out my thoughts enough today, yes like finally. Hmm....
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2009-10-11T16:13:00.021+08:00

FRIDAY

My full of laughter spongebob. (:

As you people know me- anizah, there's plenty of photos but this are the ones that I randomly choose. Plus, you can already tell that I had heaps of fun at Sentosa, with my spongebob, buying food for the picnic at the new NTUC at Hougang Mall that has 2 story, finding the right spot at Sentosa, doing all the sun-tanning, cam-whoring, nail painting, eating, laughing, stories sharing, gossiping, and all the ect ect ect. We had hells lots of fun doing things together. Right Huda? ((:
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And then came US, my buckets of joy and everything nice... Friday Night Plan.

Night safari Halloween Horror was not as scary as I imagined. Nevertheless, we had loads of fun get scared and scaring each other plus the ghosts. ((: We finished off the day with a superb supper.

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On a lighter note, I haven't got the time to talk about the world for crying out loud. Its already October which only strucked me after posting the pictures up, loads has been happening and I'm glad that things are finally at ease now. The hell's gate is opening TOMORROW. Back to the basics to waking up real shit early, dragging myself to class after class. Roar, I need to start coming in early for classes too! Speaking of which, results are finally out. No, I'm not eager either am I happy. Not even a bit of satisfaction looking at it. Pfftt. Perhaps I shall buck up more to increase the number of my gpa. Plus I've planned on my career and studies so that my life would be up to where I want it to be.

The post wayyyy too long so I think you goose shall hop to another diary.

2009-10-07T13:24:00.009+08:00

What the hell is this about?

Friendship's a two way process, just like everything else. But as long as you have friends that'll stick by you through thick and thin, you'll make it through. I think I've been through enough friendship-related drama to know who my real friends are. Those who genuinely care and who'll see me through every kind of weather. Those who make me laugh, and those who're willing to hurt me just to save me. These are the friends that I'm sticking with. I think you all know who you are, xoxo to you guys.
☺☺☺

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Killed time with my crazy bitch yesterday. Very unlike us but I love meetings like this. Like, a totally last minute plan. I love reminiscing about the old days. Talking about old friends, new friends, friendship, relationship, family, ex‘s, and all the ect ect ect. Especially when I've been having reminiscent days and thinking about the past a lot. Life was so easy back then. Simple and carefree. What happened to life? To hell with that. Guess it comes with age? I don't know. I'd do anything to rewind back to those times. Everything was easy. Life, friends - everything was so clear to me. I knew who my friends are, I knew who I loved, I knew how I wanted to live life. Now everything's still sorta a blurry blur, but I know I'll make it. I know we'll all make it someday. But through it all, at least we have the assurance that wherever we end up in the future, our friends will be there to help us in the journey and they'll be standing right there, at the moment where all our dreams come true and they'll be celebrating with us. Thanks for the great company lovely, I love you darling.
We’re gonna soak ourselves in the sun this Friday. We’re gonna have a blast. ((: can’t wait, can’t wait.

Friends are always gonna defend us when we are agitated. My friends will go mean girls on you and your friends will do the same. Whatever your friends say ain't gonna affect me and what mine say ain't gonna affect you. You struck me as a horrible person and it's a shame I'll never get to know you as anything else. Cos YOU chose to play the bitch since the start.
Man, so much better to be at peace then aggrevated.

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2009-10-06T12:39:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Raya outing with my sugarr rushh. Anizah love you people lots lots.

Ohh myy godd. It was a hell of a blast. ((: Although there were only the 6 of us, we still are the best of the best. ((:

But, *ohh wells. Apparently, some people out there are just jealous of us and seems like they can’t get over us. ((: I can’t stop laughing my ass off reading all those facebook comments. Keep it rolling BITCHES. ((:

xoxo

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2009-10-04T11:16:00.004+08:00

Ohhh boyy, did I ever mentioned, for like 3 years back, that I hate smokers cause they are the most ugliest person on earth. ☺

"The most important things are the hardest things to say."

They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them. Words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out. But it is more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you have said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried when you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for the want of a teller but for the want of an understanding ear.
I hate you cause you always lie to me.

2009-10-03T21:06:00.002+08:00

All you do is work, go out and enjoy with your friends, going in and out of Malaysia to mod your bike or top up your car’s oil but still have your friends around you cause apparently, they are your colleagues as well. That’s okayy uhh. But when we both want to enjoy and spend time together like, go shopping together or eat lunch/dinner together, or watch a movie together, or sit down and talk about us, you will always find 1,000,001 excuses not to do all that. Sure, I am aware that all these use lots of bucks, but still, it’s not like we did this every single day right. I’m not trying to whine or whatsofuckingever but fuck, can someone at least cut me some slack? It's NOT the 1st. I am sorry for being angry but I just feel like shit in my place right now. I have shitload to talk to you about but superman, you have to at least give me my chance like how I always gave you yours. A chance to speak what I want to without fearing you might retaliate after every freaking sentence. If always like that, bile mau game siaaa. Then, as always I'll be the one who is not happy. Like fuck you know. I hate it when this happens. Always make me feel like crap when I wake up in the morning.

For the last time b, stop lying. Pleaseee.

The one person that you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it . Because you love him. (c/p from set-the-world-with-love)

2009-10-01T10:32:00.005+08:00

moving off to twitter.com.

stay tune fuckers. (:

xoxo

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2009-09-29T20:29:00.007+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Raya outing with secondary school classmates.

Although not all of the sec 5A's were there, I still had lots of fun going out with my long lost classmates. ((:
Anizah LOVE you people much much.

XOXO

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2009-09-25T09:30:00.002+08:00

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I’ve got nothing to write about today and I’m very very exhausted.

I miss my boyfriend.

xoxo

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2009-09-24T19:35:00.004+08:00

What the hell is this all about?

Maybe giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

I've come to respect the fact that people are always gonna make life hard for you. I'm not gonna fucking feel sorry for myself anymore, cos I'm tired of people fucking making me feel this way. All I've been trying to do is be strong for myself, cos it's really about time. And I've been trying to be a good girlfriend, but... ugh whatever. I'm not gonna expect anything from anyone anymore, except disappointment. Cos if it's one thing I know, people ALWAYS disappoint (esp the ones you care about the most). Myself included. So, expect disappoinment. Respect the fact that in life, people will disappoint you. Inevitable truth. That way you won't be hurt, as much.

''Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, hey boy, magenta! And he's like, oh, you mean purple! And he goes off on his purple thing, and I'm like, no - I want magenta!''

Happy 3years 4 months ♥, xoxo

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2009-09-23T13:19:00.018+08:00

This is going to be an 'All-Pictures-Post.'

I'm kinda brain-dead. I don't know what to say. Pictures are from the second day of raya outing. Omar's family decided to wear black.

2009-09-20T22:04:00.026+08:00

Firstly, a very HAPPY SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all Muslims. Yaii! ((:

So, THANKFULLY, this year’s raya is NOT at my house. I thank GOD for that. Nevertheless, I had lots of never-ending fun over at the Bukit Batok house.

I’m gonna do an ‘all pictures post’ today cause I will be having another long day tomorrow.
I’ve had a great day today; surprising mum her birthday present and see how she went bonkers over it, cam-whoring, meetings with the cousins <33,>cam-whoring, asking for forgiveness, cam-whoring, eating lots of FAT-tening foods, cam-whoring, the kuih raya, cam-whoring and and and not forgetting, the getting of the ka-chings! Hee hee. (^.^)

2009-09-17T09:36:00.018+08:00

(/uglyy uglyy pic)

Okayy, I didn't hide or anything. I was here all along but nothing hatched from my brains. Thousand apologies to you people for leaving screwthatchips soo dead. I hope you’ll smile while reading this piece of crap. (^.^)

I'm gonna rush a decent entry before I go to bed. Realized that I haven't typed out a proper entry in ages. This is probably the longest shits that I had abandon screwthatchips. Anyway, I’ve just finished baking my second batch of cookies this month and I BAKED IT ALL BY MYSELF (but of course, with a TINY bit of help from mummy love). I’ve been busy busy busy as a bumble bee with lots of stuffs; families, friends, work, preparations for raya, meetings, projects, shopping, shopping, shopping, and more. This holy month seems like my ‘work-most-of-the-days’ month. I’m dilly-dallying my time, working.

Nevertheless, I have had my good times too, with family and friends. I’ve had my iftar with classmates and schoolmates. I’ve been to gaylang with my family. I’ve bought my raya clothes with my parents. My family decided to wear blue this year. I’ve had my iftar with my cousins. I’ve bought my accessories. Not forgetting, my SHOES! OooOoOoO. Me Love My New Shoes. And lots lots more.

And Oh! Did I mentioned that I’m having my, ahh, the sweet smell of ‘never-ending’ holiday. Tee hee. ((: That explains why I’m such a happy happy gerl gerl. I want to die like this. Who on earth won’t jump for joy when times like this arrive. Siao. And b-i-t-c-h spells exams. The dreadful and disastrous b-i-t-c-h are finally over. Thank god for that. Oohh. I’m so happy, I want to jump.

I’m so tired. I want to sleep till raya arrive. I’m working tomorrow, I’m working on Saturday. Work is pretty boring in weekdays. I can feel the stress I’m in by not having any guests at the entrance. And yesterday, looks like the number of staffs are more than the number of guests. Okayy, enough about work.

Somehow, I’ve not been meeting up with my secondary school mates. I missed the iftar they organized. Talking about friends, I‘ve not been meeting up with my bestfriend. Even though we live just 1 block away, I did not even get to see her nose. Much less her face. Bestfriend, if you’re reading this, please, call me soon. I’ve tried to get to you but I can’t. I miss you laaa. I miss our non-stop laughter. I miss our swimming lesson. I miss our bitching-about-everyone-and-everybody-we-know. I miss us looking at funny people, than look at each other than laugh. I miss our long phone calls. I miss our random msges. Overall, I miss you in person laa.

I'm gonna enjoy taking a break from the madness of school. 5 weeks, filled with nothing but merriment. And I'm totally psyched about Hari Raya this weekend cause I‘ve blocked my whole week of work for Raya! Family gathering! And loads of ka-ching, foods, cookies and much more. I'm excited to do lotsa other things too. Watching movies, spending time with my BFs, Gfs, BBFs, families, extra special time with my <3.

Life's good. Yeah I know, rare statement much. I guess cos I've finally stopped letting other people define me and start using my own two feet to walk, I realised that I'm capable of so many things. And I know that I'm never alone. I've got my family, my most awesome friends, my <3.

Eid Mubarak is just next week, and maybe, extensions on the eve and heaps of foods during the visiting. Sweeeeeeet. <33

I'll end with random pics.

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2009-09-04T15:22:00.006+08:00

Hello Rizal. Today, Nuranizah Bte Omar, found out something veryyy veryyy veryyy INTERESTING horr. ((:

It started with the overflowing hotmail.
Than, ooppsss! I saw a lot of NORA DIMPS over there. ((: Heh.

Comes to a point where I wanted to do some RESEARCH with my own account.

To a point where I wanted to do some PASSWORD HECKING.

Anddd, taadaaa! This is where all the interesting parts come. ((:

Pictures are god damm small, but I'm pretty sure _ _ _ _ _ knows what this means. Right <33.

You want to play this game, throw in the dice and count me IN. ((: Cheers!

2009-09-03T20:30:00.005+08:00

( /hmm, what was he thinking? )

Everyday, I pray to god that everything will be fine for you and also, so that you will have a speedy recovery .
I trust God that there will be nothing to worry about and I know He will not forsake me.
Get well soon <33.
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To whom it may concern; I just want to let you know that you are getting on my nerves. I hate the way you are treating me. I hate all the shits that you are giving me. I hate your talks. I hate your words. I hate the way you represent yourself. I hate every single thing that you are doing. I hate your attitude. I hate your behaviors. I hate to be the one who is always giving in to all your shits. I hate your courage. Infact, I don’t even think that you have any courage at all. You are worse that an animal. You are so useless. So so useless that I don’t think it’s my loss not to lose a friend like you. You are not like last time. You’ve changed so much. Just too much of a drastic change that I don’t think that I’ve even known you. I know that you’ve already gave up in giving in. I hate you. Infact, I hate you so much much more than I used to hate you before. I’ve had enough of putting up with you and your decent nonsense. Sometimes I just feel like walking far far away from your life and never come back but I just could not bring myself to do it. I feel like shouting, like really, shout right at your face and tell you that I’ve had enough of you bloody basterd attitude you, S.N.O.B.

Having you is just like having the worst nightmare after waking up from the best dream.----I hate my class today, especiall YOU. Humphhh!

2009-09-02T20:57:00.003+08:00

This week’s school will be driving me to my grave. Exams is just days away and I can still dilly dally sing myself the ‘Dora the Explorer’ song, sitting here, in front of my desk top and blogging away.

I learn that someone is JEALOUS after reading my blog. Hur hur. (^.^) I want to polish my nails again. I want the days to slow down. I don't want to go to 'Kebayarobics' anymore. I don't want to fail my exams. I don't want to find a bus/lorry for raya class outing. I need a good hug. I want to meet you, everyday. I don't like Zul and Haikal because they like to call me Mak Mok.
I don’t even know what’s the point in typing all these here cause my mind is somewhere else and I’m worried sick, for you. <33

Today, after school, went to study with Sharul, Amyrool and Ella. Afterwards, bought myself the 2.90bucks nail polisher AGAIN, this time in RED, (((: and the 1.30bucks m&m. Woohoo. (^.^)

Reach home, met up with these two monkeys, lepak-lepak, talk-talk, cakap-cakap, laugh-laugh, smile-smile, gossip-gossip and Ghazali never fast today because he smoke eat 4 of my m&m.

2009-09-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

Had my first studying session with Sharul yesterday at the National Library after eons of not opening up a book and did a proper self-revision. Afterwards, went to Burger King for break-fast. Walked around Bugis, bought myself the 2.90bucks nail polisher and m&m’s before bus-ed home at around 9.30pm.

Meeting Superman and not forgetting my m&m's later. oOoOoO. Can’t wait can’t wait. ((:

2009-08-30T20:34:00.002+08:00

I hate yesterday, I hate yesterday, I hate hate hate hate hate yesterday! Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you! Yes! Fuck you and your damm fucking filthy attitude you filthy male slut gigolo useless annoying irritating dog! Go fuck yourself! Go fuck your attitude! Go fuck your fucking life! Urghhh! I’m soo angry! I feel like shouting at your damm fucking filthy motha-eff face and tell you that I’ve had enough of your fucking shits. It’s really fucking useless, annoying and irritating to have u around. Ughhhh! I want to kill you. I want to stab you. I want to run you down with a bullet train. Urghhhhh! Go eat GREEN crayons, shit algae, and die faster, pleaseee!

I hate to rant this shit but looks like I have no choice but to still rant all these shits that you’ve been giving me since eons ago. You talk big, you act big, but the actual fact is, you don’t even have any major cheeseBALLS to face up to anyone you useless chap! And to whom it may concern, please, hit yourself HARD with a hammer to wake yourself up cause it’s time you open not only your eyes but your brains and your tiny cheeseBALLS too! (Luckily, I’m not fasting today. So, it’s okayy.)

To anyone who feels the pinch after reading this, GOOD for you cause maybe, just maybe, you’re that one USELESS chap that I’m referring to. (:

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Break-fast at Pasta Mania with my date. ((: Afterwards, plan to go Geylang to buy dendeng but since it’s fully booked by the mats and minahs, and also, not forgetting, pakcik and makcik, we decided to give it a miss. Bought my second pair of m&m and the 1buck coke bottle at SPC before heading home since Superman is heading Johor for another session of ‘petrol pumping at the lowest rates in town.’ Typical kiasu-ism of a typical Singaporean.

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2009-08-29T00:05:00.001+08:00

♥♥♥

A quick update before I starts wearing my boy’s FOX sweater and off to lala land. God, it feels so damm comfortable just by being in there. I can feel the warmth I’m in. Tee-hee ((:
Bursary Award Presentation at Serangoon Community Club tomorrow. Omar’s family is going to be there. Afterwards, “Charity thingy’’ over at town, IF only I can make it. Also, Ella’s not going. So, what’s the point. If not, meeting my boy for break-fast, IF only he make the effort to come by. Can’t wait can’t wait. Toodles readers!

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2009-08-28T13:27:00.005+08:00

First, Superman is not talking to me and a week of Ramadhan has finally touched the ground. I am not fully blithe yet cause its not as though school's close, training suppressed and assignments stop piling up. If you're close, you can hear me sighing. And then came the most redundant thing I've ever done but I never really thought about what I want. But at this very moment,
I want to go shopping.
I want to breathe better.
I want to grow out my hair.
I want to sleep better tonight.
I want to have a good massage.
I want to have unlimited freedom.
I want to bury myself with m&m‘s.
I want to give a good hug to my boy.
I want Superman to be mine forever.
I want to plant lotsa kisses to my boy.
I want to wake up to a million dollars.
I want to start cleaning my room but I am lazy.
I want to spend a good quality time with my friends.
I want to stop suffering from my internal difficulties.
I want to stop being lazy and start being active in school.
I want money to come by without me working or doing anything.
I want to be a quick thinker and not have trouble with thinking fast.
I want you to tell me when can I stop typing this shit which might cause the list to go on and on.

As you can see, I never stop rambling about life and whatnots. But its a diary so its not a crime.

I've been thinking, wanting, wishing, hoping for... I wanna be in a world where I can just live, love, learn and play. I wanna be in a world where I could wake up next to you everyday. I wanna be in a world where I can make mistakes and not be judged for them. I wanna be in a world where I could work without politics. I wanna be in a world filled with starry-sky nights. I wanna be in a world where sunshine is abundant. I wanna be in a world where I could wake up to the pitter-patter of morning rain. I wanna be in a world where promises are kept. I wanna be in a world where anger is a passing noun. I wanna be in a world where children don't suffer. I wanna be in a world where there is no war. I wanna be in a world that has free Starbucks. I wanna be in a world where I can actually drive. I wanna be in a world where Maggi has no msg. I wanna be in a world where MJ is still alive and beatin' it. I wanna be in a world that does not know of insecurity. I wanna be in a world where chivalry still exists. I wanna be in a world where I can believe in magic. I wanna be in a world where tears only meant happiness. I wanna be in a world that's satisfied with itself.

In other words, I want a perfect world.

Dear God truth is, I am very very tired.

Where are you? Should I still look forward for tomorrow?

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2009-08-27T20:17:00.013+08:00

♥♥♥

How good can one feels knowing that there will be no school after today for the next 4 straight days? ((:
No school = no teachers = no smelly armpit = no homework = no stress = ENJOY which leads to you being the happiest kid alive.
Gosh, it feels soo GOOD to be ME. (:
I’m so happy, I want to roll on rainbow while eating m&m.
Anizah is a happy kid, for today. (^.^)

Talking about school, yesterday’s test was disastrous. I would’t even want to talk about it. This feeling suckssss. Knowing that I will be repeating the module sucksss even more. FML.

So, 2 papers down. 2 more to go before the big holiday.
Jia yous Anizah. I can do it. (:
Jia yous IEH. We can do it. (:

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Can anyone please tell him that I’m not okayy. I feel like a looser.
Me not talking to you = me dying slowly.
How could you even have the heart to say that. ):
Date on Saturday. OoOoOo. Can’t wait can’t wait. ((:

I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

2009-08-25T21:33:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was crazy. With deadlines for BZE project the next day, I can still laze around and sing myself the ’twinkle twinkle little star’ song till I nearly went ‘siow-ting-tong’ while trying to finish up my work. I kept pulling my hair, drink lots of water, make so much noise with the, ‘tsk, tsk, tsk’ sound, and kept on shouting, ‘stress, stress, stress, somebody call 911’ till all of my family members ask me to shut the hell up. I don’t even have the extra time to eat my Superman’s m&m. Luckily I managed to finish up the 3 deadly articles in just one day within 5 hours. *ohh, wells! I didn’t know I’m that GOOD. ((: This is somehow or rather, a good lesson learnt; never ever do things last minute, cause if not, you’ll suffer.
But still, I should thank my best friend, Sharul, for everything. You know what you’ve done babe. And I know you’re only so good to me cause, I’M YOUR BESTFRIEND right. * wide smilesss (((: *

OFA exams tomorrow. My GOOD LUCK to IEH. I know we can do it cause no one ever wants to repeat this deadly module right, Nazri and Haikal? And Sharul, you know right, you’re the best! ((:

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On a happier note, yesterday’s our 39th and surprisingly, he wished me first. Hee((: I LOVE YOU too, superman. ((:

2009-08-22T21:59:00.007+08:00

Nurul Huda's 18th Birthday. <33

(sorry for the uglyy pic/. tee hee.)

Happy Eighteen Birthday to my very best friend, Nurul Huda Bte Suhaimi.

Nurul Huda Binte Suhaimi;
She loves to joke. She’s attractive. She’s suave and caring. She’s brave and fearless. She’s firm and has leadership qualities. She does know how to console others. She’s too egoistic and takes high pride in herself. And, she’s thirsty for praises, has extraordinary spirit, easily angered. Easily angry when provoked. She’s easily jealous. Veryy Observant, careful and cautious. She thinks quickly. Has independent thoughts. She loves to lead and to be led. She even loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. She’ hasty and trusty, romantic, loving and caring. And definitely, loves to make friends.

Your special day has come by again. We had so much fun last time around, a twin sister was someone I found.

Each year August 22th is a wonderful day, as we march forth in our own fun way.Just hanging around and laughing a lot, It is truly amazing what we have got.

A friendship like ours is not easy to come by, often the intensity of it makes me so high. Is our beautiful friendship really only a dream? Sometimes it feels so unreal that I must scream.

Cries of joy and happiness galore, and that is what I most adore. Your infectious laughter and zest for life, but I am there to keep you from strife.

How lucky we are to have found one another, I couldn't spend so much time with any other. I will always be there to watch over you, To keep you safe and happy too.

Well my dear I wish you Happy Birthday once more, an abundance of good wishes for you are in store. A new year filled with lots of happiness and laughter, and only the very best for you from here on after.

Babe, within you, I’ve found the perfect friend, someone who I know will be there till the end and they’re not just thoughts I hope will fulfill but thoughts that will stand forever still.
Babe, within you, I’ve found the perfect friend, a mind that I can comprehend a person I see is so much like me, a mutual relationship so carefree.
Babe, within you, I’ve found the perfect friend
with whom I can be real, and never pretend, you’ve always been someone unique from the rest, you hold a piece of me no other can possess.
Babe, within you is reason to live every moment in time, within you the life I want is always mine, within you I have the perfect friend with you, I see myself till the very end.

Once again, Happy Birthday my Love!

2009-08-19T23:17:00.008+08:00

Mummy’s Birthday Celebration! ((:

Went home from school and surprised mummy with a cake right on our doorstep after she opened the door. She was like, ‘Oh My God. What is this?’ Hahas. Than at around 8plus, Daddy brought us to Changi for dinner to celebrate her birthday. And since there’s only me and my brother inside the car, all we did was to cam-whore. ((:

Mum, you know that I LOVE YOU and will always will. You're the greatest mum in the world and really, no one in this world would ever make a perfect mum like you. There's lots of things to say but i'll just keep it short and simple. I hope you like the small suprise I did for you and always know that i will always be there for you. I LOVE YOU, MUM. <333333

Get Your Own Life Bitch.

"The greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most."

Maybe people like you deserve a goddamn 200,000 bullet shoot straight at your forehead, for trying so hard to be like someone else but not yourself. You keep going on and on and on and on and on blogging about her like there’s no tomorrow. Are you so obsessed with her or something? And boy, you really need help from the spellingbee.com. And really, there’s LOTS more to pen down here about you. Yes, YOU. Seriously, you are lacking of attention, care and love honey. I abhor blogging about people like you but honestly, you and that so called ‘friend’ of yours is getting on everyone's nerves. So I had no choice but to pen down about what I really feel about you. You blogged about her everything but at the actual fact, you knew nothing about her. Absolutely, NOTHING. You blogged and pretend that you are the so called ‘innocent’ party over here and pretend as if you have not done anything bad to anyone but just that, I see you don't seem to comprehend what you are doing to yourself. You gossiped about us when you sees us, you feel so damn insecure now and than and your eyes can never stop taking a secret glance at us and think that we didn't see it at all. Tell me, just what are you thinking? Do you happen to know that everyone is talking about you? Everyone, in class I must say. Yes even our classmates is talking about you and how you present your disgusting self in class. You really thought that you rule the world babe. Geez I still can't believe that YOU actually exist in the world. If only I had the chance, I, or rather, WE, want you DEAD or maybe far far away from this planet. Plus the fact that you made us hate you so so much, I shall keep Screwthatchips clean from your name being in here. Taking advantage of me when I'm at my crucial moments is what I abhor most. Honestly, it didn't work out. Now girl, you START the fire, I'll END it. Keep the dice rolling. And this, is just the BEGINNING.

I used to think that letting my feelings free was the one thing that scared me the most; wearing my heart on my sleeve, putting out my emotions and all that jazz... but it's nothing to me anymore. Letting my feelings be known doesn't scare me one bit anymore. Letting you know how I feel, it doesn't scare me. It can't hurt me. Because honestly, having you to be around me and my life and whatnots is all glorious crap. So this, is nothing. I officially do not know what will hurt me. So surprise me, why don't you?

Life's been pretty rollercoasteresque. Is it just me.... or is my body completely messed up? I've been having random headaches, heart palpitations, feeling so lethargic. I mean, I've been sleeping alright, but I still feel this way. I've never felt so faint in school. Help. Not to mention, the off and on again flu. Urgh. Everything's piling up, I’m starting to feel the pang of being a year 1 student.
I am so tensed with everything right now and all I need is pure love.

But can anyone tell me what’s the male word for slut?

2009-08-17T20:15:00.012+08:00

Muhammad Rizal's 20th Birthday Celebration♥

Met the Birthday Boy over at AMK to save him the trouble of picking me up from home. Oh wells, he IS the Birthday Boy. But still, I got him to wait for me for a near half an hour. So, umm, yar.

Drag him to the 4th level and he was shocked to see a lot of people queuing up for movie tickets. Just as he was about to pass it off, I showed him the movie tickets which I had bought the day before and off we went, inside the movie theater to catch Orphan. Had lunch and then went home as he had to go to school for a test. So, yar. That’s it, for his birthday. And that’s only the beginning, for me. (:

It took me years to ask him to go to school ASAP as I still had a lot of thing to do. I kept saying bye, bye, bye, gave him flying kiss, cheek kiss, forehead kiss, and even watch him ride off but still, he’s there, near me, around my house. So, I convinced him that I’m meeting my friends and such so that he can go off ASAP.

As I patiently waited for him to finally went off, (cause I do not want him to suspect anything. I even lied to him about going home at 8, eating with my family and calling dad) I quickly called Hanafie, laminated his birthday card, took 72 to YCK, train-ed to Bukit Batok, met Hanafie, buy care bear, collect cake, and finally off we went to his school. That alone, took me nearly 1½ hour. I was shaking and I kept complaining to Hanafie about ‘what if it did not turn out well’ and such.

We talked, talked and talked in the car and finally after we reached his school, Hanafie search for Rizal’s bike, Hanafie call me to come over, Hanafie help me put his birthday card on Rizal’s bike, Hanafie ask me hide behind a car, Hanafie came over to hide with me, Hanafie peek over at Rizal’s bike to look if Rizal’s out from class, Hanafie lit up the candle, Hanafie peek over again, and again, and again, and again, and again while I only sit there and ask Hanafie, ’is it him’, ’who is that’, ’it’s him?’, ’the bike?’, ’where is he?’, ’why is he taking so long?’, ’is it him? is it him, and a lot of, is it him?’. Hehe. We wanted Rizal to read the card first before surprising him with a cake from behind.

While waiting, both of us are already sweating like crazy. Even Hanafie can’t hold onto his urine anymore. Our legs are aching from all the bending. The candles are melting. THE SUPRISE are going to be oh-so-puurfect…. Till…. When Hanafie is peeking over to look at Rizal’s bike, again, a familiar voice came from upstairs. And there he was, MUHAMMAD RIZAL, you ruined every single thing of us making your surprise a successful one. FYL. So yar, the rest, is history.

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Lastly, a BIG BIG BIG thank thank thank you to my best buddy, Ella Junaidi and Sharul Nizam for accompanying me to get the birthday boy present, even though you guys are already dying from the 8-5pm school and also from the trip to BB for the survey and then to Somerset, you guys still have the energy to put up with my whining and whatsnot till 10pm. You guys rock. (:
And also not forgetting my ‘savior at the end of the day’, Hanafieee. You’re the best. (: We sure had lots of problems to share.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE you people long time.

2009-08-14T10:21:00.019+08:00

Muhammad Rizal's 20th Birthday ♥

♥♥♥
What gift should I give you on your special day? Cause I want to express this feeling words could never say. I'm afraid to give you a kiss under the morning mists for I'm having a view that you'll get unconscious when I do. I'm afraid to give you a hug in the arms of the evening fog for there's a possible reason I know that you might not let me go. Maybe I'll just hold your hands till the music ends from a song of a band but I fear from what I see that you might not stop thinking of me. I think what I'm writing now is getting a little out of hand for the real meaning I want to say is buried deep in the sand but what I'm most afraid to do is to write this.. for I might be falling in love with you but seriously, I think.. I do. (:
♥♥♥ ♥♥♥
To my Birthday Boy whom I love the most and will always be by my side.

Dear Rizal,
You have been a real delight baby. You make me smile with your quirky personality and big heart. It has been a meaningful rollercoaster ride. Through the hardships and pure joy and love from you has made my day; an even brighter one each and everyday. I sincerely thank you for everything that you gave me dear. Because of you I’m the person that i am today. Looking back at all the pictures makes me smile even more, hehe. The fun times we had and definitely there's more to come. Surely, 3 years seems like a short time but the lessons learnt are essentials and it's all part of our foundation. My future lies with you my dear. *ehem ehem* Yes, I may be a good liar (you know, about the going home and meeting my bff thingy) but I do it because I love you and further more it was quite a surprise isn't it? I really hope you loved the wallet. Take good care of it love, take care of it with love just like how you took care of me. And a big thank you to you too. I wish and pray for your future. You know me well and I love Muhammad Rizal. Hahaha. I never regretted the decision I made 3years ago. It was a wise decision. That I picked a torn that I loved. Through thick and thin, under whatever circumstances, we'll never leave each other's side okay?
and as for today...
Yay, you loved the surprise movie,
Yay, you loved the card,
Yay, you loved the cake,
Yay, you loved the wallet,
Yay, you loved the way I smile at you and hug you tightly,
and yay you love me for the person that I am!
I love you Superman.
Happy Birthday :)
♥♥♥

2009-08-12T20:05:00.008+08:00

Want to watch pukimak.

I just have to blog about this cause she is soo freaking annoying. Just look at her lips. WTF.
I’m so bored, I just want to die. Friday’s coming and I still do not know what to do. I have not gotten his present, I have not ordered the cake, the card is not ready and I have no idea what to do. Someone, anyone, help me. I'm in deep shit.

And what has this ( http://kebayarobics.blogspot.com/ ) got to do with me, Asy?

2009-08-10T21:25:00.011+08:00

Tell Lord, the Bitch is back.

I survived my 3 days of hell. Standing for more than 10 hours for 3 days straight is a no no joke. Thank goodness I’m still alive. (: Looks like the Singapore Zoo has turned out to become the Little India for a day. With lots of Suresh friends going in and out of the Zoo. You can feel as if you’re at Mustafa over there.

I missed the fantastic fireworks. I missed the NDP celebration on tv. I missed the pledge taking ceremony at 8.22pm. But luckily, I did not miss the Singapore Idol ‘Asian Arvil Lavinge’. Hahas. She’s god-damn humorous. God, let worms eat her brain cells slowly. She’s too crazy to even look like Arvil. Ohh, pleaseee. Go wear a red and black stripes tights girl.

I’m so tired, I want to die.
School’s start at 9am tomorrow and I don’t think I could even wake up on time.
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Toddles readers. I'll be smiling in my sleep tonight.

2009-08-07T15:32:00.005+08:00

I’ve been a good girl this whole week. I’ve been coming to school punctually. I’ve got straight one’s in my attendance (for this week only) , I can attend classes which starts at 8am now. (give me chance for Thursday please). All this is because, I’ve got my 2nd warning letter already lor. ):

I’m so happy I want to jump off from the 2nd story and lands on a swimming pool. Hopefully, this goes on till the end of the year.

I woke up veryyy early today to go to school with the intention to study for EPL, was prepared to do tutorials for BZE, can’t wait to print-out homework’s for OFA, even brought 3 thick textbook, water bottle, pens, highlighter, foolscap, thumb drive, file, notes and even a big crumpler bag. So, I woke up at 6.30am, wash up at 7am, go out of the house at 7.30am, reach school at 8am but surprisingly, class starts at 8.30am. Reach class, put bags, wait for friends, go canteen, but food, come back class, play games, chit chat, watch videos, go home. Fuck My Life, today.

Meet superman on Wednesday, ride on Kawasaki, go see doctor, buy fun-sized m&m, eat shaker fries, go west coast playground, play skateboard, play merry-go-round, stomach pain, sit on the floor, talk about life, read newspaper, stand up to change location because there got bee, went off, ride on Kawasaki again, go home, fight because of PSP, open bedroom window, throw pen and exercise book, close window, on air-con, write in journal.

8.30pm, take lift go downstairs, meet Ghazali at playground, talk talk, wear helmet, ride on RXZ, go Sengkang buy cornetto Mac flurry at take-away counter, slow moving vehicle, stop at Sengkang park, get down, eat ice-cream, talk talk about mats and minahs, ITE amk and bishan, ride RZX again, shout shout, reach home, noisy motorbike, take lift go home, sleep.
XOXO

2009-08-06T22:31:00.001+08:00

I don’t wanna wake up today cause everyday’s the same and i’ve been waiting so long for things to change i’m sick of this town sick of my job sick of my friends cause everyone’s jaded sick of this place i wanna break free i’m so frustrated i just wanna jump don’t wanna think about tomorrow i just don’t care about tonight I don’t wanna think about my sorrow let’s go whoa forget my problems i don’t wanna wake up one day and find out it’s too late to do all the things I wanna do so I’m gonna pack up my bags and never coming back cause the years are passing by and I'm wasting all my time i’m sick of this house sick of being broke sick of this town that’s bringing me down sick of this place i wanna break free i can’t take it anymore I want to forget about tomorrow.

Oh I said too much. I set it up. That's me in the corner. That's me in the spotlight. Trying to keep up with you and I don't know if I can do it. Oh no I said too much. I haven't said enough. I thought I heard you laughing. I thought that I heard you sing. I think I thought I saw you trying. Every whisper of waking hour, I'm choosing my confessions. Trying to keep an eye on you like a hurt, lost and blinded fool. Oh no I said too much. I set it up. Consider this, the hint of the century. Consider this, the slip that brought me to my knees failed. What if all these fantasies come flailing around? Now I've said too much. But that was just a dream. That was just a dream.

I want to eat m&m's, shit rainbow, listen to hardcore metal music, burn monopoly money, jump like crazy, dress up as hantu, donate my panties and bra to ah lian's and minah's, scold vulgar words to ansuntong and die in my sleep, tonight.

2009-08-04T21:22:00.017+08:00

Zinnia’s advance 18th birthday celebration.

Needless to say, we (carol, wafi, yanti and me) had lots of fun celebrating her 18th birthday even though we nearly got into fights and some trouble over at cineleisure. I had lots of fun disturbing her and telling her what to do in order to get her birthday presents, even though she did not do any of that. Humph!
((: hehe.

Lots to say but I’ll let pictures do the talking.

Lastly, me wishing Zinnia Chai Wen Yi a veryyy HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY. May you have the most wonderful day on your birthday and may you be the happiest girl on earth today. May all your hopes and dreams come true and hopefully, you’ll never forget the mini celebration we made for you. (:

Hello screwthatchips, this is a note to tell you that I am still alive (hahaha). A 4 day absence in my posts is becoming increasingly frequent.
Been a tiring few days for me and I'm ready to faint.

Sometimes I think either I'm lost in my own thoughts, too self-absorbed or I just don't give much care to general events in my life. Or maybe all of the above.
I hate being human. I don't like how I experience all these thoughts of selfishness, jealously, pride, anger which I just can't control, then I go on and hurt others, others hurt me and it's a whole vicious cycle. I want so hard to be good, but I just lapse sometimes, urgh. I want to be an alien! Far removed from planet earth, and riding the interstellar highways on comet #106, looking into the galaxy with huge dilated pupils and webbed fingers, away from people, this tiny island, a little air-conditioned bell jar in the tropics.. but oh! I will come to earth and steal some of their music. I think whatever strange creature I'd be, somehow possibly, I'd still be all of the things I love and please alien world don't take Rizal away from me.

And btw screwthatchips, do you hate hypocrites? Cause I do. Plus I didn't know they actually still exist in the world, worst still, among your circle of friends. Look yourself in the mirror and maybe start telling yourself that you're one whore who's been tailing on people's ass. Stop talking, eat crayons and die faster, as matter of fact I can foresee that you are in need of an attention. Very very in need of that. You talk way too much and brag about how good your life is, your voice, your music, your bf and your judgmental. The next thing I know, life's like a rollercoaster. Okayy this may sound very familiar. And before you start hopping on others, let me give you a piece of advice, if you think you want to play this game, throw in the dice and count me in.

Simon says, ''flip your hair to the side and tilt your neck.. hold for 5minutes and give a arrogant look to everyone around you!''
Bless you, bitch.

Love gives me high Ecstacy. You make me recover so quickly I didn't have to breathe. Thank you m&m and I love love love you everyday.

xoxo

2009-08-01T23:08:00.001+08:00

I've got lots to say but I'm too tired to pen everything down here.
Pictures on Zinnia's birthday will be uploaded later, maybe tomorrow.
Goodnight earthlings! (:

I miss you, GILE.

2009-07-31T21:12:00.004+08:00

..Ohh O..

I'm so disappointed with myself today. If only I had start reading that book earlier. If only I had gone for the trail test. If only i had memorise most of the answers. If only that f**king apek had not sit beside me and had the word FAILED shown on his screen. If only, if only, if only...
Urgh. Fuck My Life. I deserve to die.
I'm gonna do well for my second try. Jia yous!

Celebrating Zinnia's 18th birthday tomorrow. Pretty excited on how thing's gonna work out for her with all the funny ideas coming from B. hehe. (your's worse than mine. *evil face insert here*) (:
She's sure gonna have the most hell-lala-luya birthday celebration in her entire life. Be in for more suprise my dear sweetheart. ((:
sshhhuuussshhhh.

2009-07-30T21:13:00.008+08:00

I don’t care if I never see you again. I’ll be alright.

I woke up to a sunny morning, turned on my music and played Don’t Trust Me. Don't trust a ho. Never trust a ho. Don't trust a ho. Cause a ho won't trust me. Damn I'm doing the whole incessant rambling thing again.

So how's life? It's been good. School’s dead but, Oh! Did I ever mentioned to you guys that I’m in the most awesome cum fun and exciting class in school of batch year 1 April intake 2009. I had my most wonderful time in class, today. And I love Nazri’s voice cause I think I can melt by just sitting beside him and listen to him sing. And Nazri’s ‘boy band’ is the most happening group I’ve ever encountered. They did this awesome dikir barat shit in class but whatever it is, I really enjoyed myself looking at whatever shits they are doing cause I can just laugh and smile to myself even though they can be the most annoying group on earth during LPD. ((: hehe. And I think I’m falling in love with Haikal because I find that he’s ‘hot’ for a sec. Syed’s too cute to resist and Zul is just god-damm humorous and I think I can fall in love with his jokes. And guess what? His hair’s growing! Fast! ((: Okayy. Enough said about them. This is like finally that first time I blogged about ‘that’ group in class.

I love my class, Today.

I can't believe it's August already - technically. School's been the focus of my days again and its starting to wear on me. The past glorious weeks of sleeping at 11pm and not surfacing from the bed till 9am everyday routine has become a kind of habit. My body resists my very futile attempt to wake up every morning. Lessons and urgh, 8AM classes are such a strong test for my intolerance of little sleep. It's still pretty slack for now cause the exams haven't started.

I kind of dread thinking of how term will be like towards the exams. The rush to complete neverending and dense readings. The panic that you'll never come remotely close to finishing it all lamenting time and time again. Turning the air blue with "oh what if..." or "if only I'd started earlier" But once we sail (relatively) safely through the finals, we all know that the whole cycle will start up again. Oh school, you're so horrid. There's so many consequences I have to face if I fail. I need to succeed. I can't afford to waste it but yet I feel so slovenly. My gear's still in Parking mode.

I had a good day today cause I met B after school. And the new shaker fries is turning into my new addiction.
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At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.
Some are running scared. Some are coming home.Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth.Some are evil men at war with good. And some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls.
And sometimes, all you need is one.

2009-07-27T20:33:00.007+08:00

To my special someone who has always been the light at the end of a tunnel, the sun after every moon, and the smile to every sad face.

I know very well that you would drop by screwthatchips and come across this. A whole junk of sweetwords for you. For all the things that we've gone through, from the start of knowing you till now, loads of history been buried cause we're closer now and you're one hella boyy I reckon. Best guyfriend a girl could ever asked for. You've been there to hear me out each time I whine about school, friends, family and etc. Did lotsa silly things together and I swear you crack me up each time we talk even on the phone. Screw your humor bitch.

I thank god I’ve meet you years ago. And now, we have come this far, you inspire me.
Every so often, some little things you say, or do, completely overwhelms me, and I remember why I absolutely love you.

Oh boyy, THANK YOU!

Thank you for always being there for me whenever I need you. Thank you for always giving me the listening ear. Thank you for always cheering me up. Thank you for picking me up from school. Thank you for buying me things. Thank you for putting a smile on my face. Thank you for letting me know that I’m not alone. Thank you for always being so kind. Thank you for always giving in. Thank you for putting up with my nonsense/attitude. Thank you for being so patient. Thank you for being there even when I'm being a pain in the ass. Thank you for being there even, still standing tall upon countless times of me wanting to leave and whatnots. Thank you for tolerating me and my never ending whining, especially when I'm at my most crankiest mood. I know sometimes you just feel like giving me a nice hard punch straight to my face so that I'll just keep quiet. Thank you for being the most understanding guyfriend ever, you totally rock. Thank you for always thinking of me even when you're not with me and giving me 99 missed calls just to check on me whether I'm alright. Thank you for lending me a shoulder to cry on, and comfort me with your hugs and lovely kisses. There's so many things to thank you but you know the things you did for me was appreciated much. ((:

Dear you,
I know times have been rough and things have been said but I hope deep down you know how much you truly mean to me. It's hard not having you around and things in my life have been stressful and I've taken my bad days out on you, but please know that you mean the world to me and I love you. I understand that we have been through a lot together for very long and I want to express to you the love that I feel. My life has been a hellish nightmare, one that haunts and never leaves me to peace. The day that I realized that I loved you, my bad dreams ceased. You have made my life worth every moment, every breath. I know that we are young and as such are thought not to feel such intense emotion but what I feel is true and blinding in it's power. You have swept me away and proved to me that love exists - in you.
♥ ♥ ♥

2009-07-25T14:48:00.003+08:00

Life is bigger, it's bigger than you and you are not me. The lengths that I will go to the distance is in your eyes.
3 weeks of school, down. How time flies, and next thing I know its the holidays again. Ok no, maybe I think too far. I've my exams to worry about. School school school, I hate hate hate school. Everyday I have to go through the same old cycle for I have to drag myself to the toilet and be punctual for class that starts wayyy too early than I expected. Punctuality is another thing that I could have never able to be and I yearn for school to close down cause of the killer virus that has knocked a number of people down. I go to school, study and have a bunch of crazy cliques to laugh my ass off with, some bitchy moments with the bitchy ones and my school day ends in a happy way. Honestly I still wanna know who invented school which is giving me a headache every now and then. Shall skipped about my project cause I don‘t know what is happening to it neither do I know what will happen to it.
Dear God, save the earth please.
The previous post was a little to harsh and ITS NOT OVER YET. ): Superman is currently at work. World's most hardworking man in the century -.- Religious class at 5pm. Mum’s nagging. Picture’s posting. Updating diary. School work. Urgh!

2009-07-24T19:48:00.007+08:00

Life’s a BITCH, so go FUCK it.
I feel like shit. No one knew what is happening. No one knew what will happen. I felt like running away from reality and NEVER come back. I wanna cry out LOUD. The traffic in my brain’s driving me insane. I’ve got to get away.
Is this just a dream or is this reality? I’ve got to be sure.
it’s the 24th of the month but yet again, it’s another day of disappointment. ):

2009-07-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

Well, hello there screwthatchips. I finally realized that it’s time to update after quite sometime. Life has not been treating me alright. School is slowly eating my braincells up and my friend is getting high each day but that still does not make me a happy kid. I am still having a hard time to set my mind to focus in school but, I’ll try.

No inspirations at the tip of my fingertips at this hour. In case you're wondering, I'm not doing any way better than usual. ):

I’ve not been a good girl nowadays. I’m not doing my work. I’m not going to school at the right time. I’m not participating in class. I’m not serious about work. I’m not doing any housework. I’m not opening my books. I’ve not been studying. I’ve been eating. I’ve not been doing my test well. I’m not feeling happy. I’m not doing my projects. I’ve not been to facebook. I’m not msn-ing. I’m not checking emails. I’ve not been blogging. I’ve been vomiting since last week. I’ve not been doing any make ups. I’m not shopping. I’m not dressing up. I’ve not been doing my daily prayers. I’m not reading newspapers.
I just don’t wish to have a second warning letter. I felt sooo sick.

Time flies, oh God slow down please. The long awaited weekends will end in just a few hours time. I seriously am NOT READY for school, yet. No bubbling. I don't want to go to school but I miss those killer laughter I always had with my friends. I definitely hate knowing when is my exams but still, I need to work on all my modules to get in the 2nd year. Sheesh. My mind has been pondering about heaps of things but its part of life. Holy crab.

So, I’m hoping to be back to become an ’early riser’. School is such a goose but never my friends cause practically we were eggcited to see each other and knowing that H1N1 had to spoil my mood to go to school everyday now, it kinda made me have Monday-Friday Blues. Which makes me wanna quit school just because of the walking distance and the estimated time to reach the class is giving me a heart attack and it’s god damn annoying. I’m not being whiny but it’s the fact. I feel like I have to walk 2.4km just to reach the front gate of the school every morning. Killer, no really.

I’m expecting or maybe hoping to feel no physical and emotional pain. I predict I’ve lost my sense of feeling and judgment. Well, life has it’s ups and down and mine’s decaying.
I’ve not been a happy girl. No, not like a sugar high 6 years old.
Just felt like ranting at fmylife.com.

Goodnight sweet world.
XOXOXO

"It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces"
I’m so scared to let my heart unwind again, but there you go, doing it, over and over again.

2009-07-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

ELLA'S 18th BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.

It spells G.R.E.A.T.

2009-07-03T20:52:00.013+08:00

Today i was baking my hash brown in the oven when suddenly, 2 minutes later, my house went black-ed out. My brother said it was the cause of the oven and he made me fry my hash brown instead. Now, i had to alwaysss go over to the kitchen to check out how my hash brow was doing while updating my blog. FML.

Went out with o.Lover for a short group discussion. Walked around Marina Square. Think and talked about people's birthday present. Get friendship band. Trained to Wheelock cause Saddam wants to get a fashion book. Sit outside BK on a small bench and comment on every people who walked passed us. Gossiped. Talked cock. Parted. Home.

Fuck His Life.

2009-07-01T21:58:00.004+08:00

I just got back from somewhere; I won’t tell. I missed Transformers with o.Lover, especially Ella. Tsk. F**k all those shits. I hate my hair. I hate my arms. I hate my tighs. I hate my work. I love my new wallet which mummy and daddy bought for me yesterday.

Seems like I just can’t get over you, smileyyy boyyy. ((:

2009-06-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

I’m so f**king mad pissed with people having bullshitty shitty shits attitude. It really irks me so much to see people behaving like that. Like really, can you just f**king get over yourself, get over me, get over us and f**king move on. You’re really very irritating and very disappointing in my eyes. Just f**king leave me alone and please, f**king get a life! Seems like you have no one other than me in your f**king pathetic life! And if murder is not under Singapore law, I’d have killed you long ago. And I pray that every passing hour, your heart may bruise and beat, I pray that every step you take, may bruise and burn your feet.

Just seems like I've lost everything in life. So this, is the another side of me. I'm pissed and annoyed after what happened just now. All I know is that you're never once like that, but seriously, you really turn me off. I don't bother about you now and I don't even bother to spare some of my time to talk about you neither do I even want to talk to you. Get over it, dude. Its worthless arguing and snapping at me. Wrong person, wrong girl seriously.

I hate him as I hate the devil.

2009-06-30T00:12:00.004+08:00

Hello troopers, today was not my off day and I got to sleep in.
I’m supposed to be sleeping now but my eyes are still wide open, as wide as a goldfish. It’s weird cause this is the first time I blogged in the middle of the night. (: It rain cats and dogs just now which got me stucked at my bed leaving me freezing so badly. Weather is just too good/nice to sleep in and tuck under my sweet scented blanket.

Today's the 30th and I'm blogging for the sake of blogging. If not I would be lazy to even pen down my thoughts. Life been a blast or whatever you call it. Cause what matters most is that I had my party on and have the least fun before school starts.

Had quality time with the sugar rushhh on Sunday. Flea market? Oh, I think it went pretty well for us, the first timers. I don’t know if I should say it went bad or well but I think it’s okayy. Not that bad. But the most important thing is, all of us had super duper uber fun minus the hot and stuffy surroundings. With the shouting/screaming, loud laughter, the walking around non-stop to avoid overcrowd at our booth, the non-stop repeating the-same-lines-over-and-over-again to each and every one of our new customers, we even made new friends and so much much more.

On a happier note, I bought myself a Vans Boat Shoe for school. Smilesss (:

2009-06-26T21:04:00.007+08:00

Flea Market @ Mount Sophia Booth Area 5!

"Where the journey of fashion starts,"

This is a brief preview of what we are gonna sell during the flea market. Oversized tees, bomber jackets, Maxi dresses, High-wasted shorts/skirts, raglan tees, and even a couple of boho items!
Best of all, all of them are going to be BELOW $20! YES! You got that right! :D So do show your support by coming down to our booth(AREA 5) this coming Sunday (28TH JUN) from 2pm-8pm @ 7 Mt Sophia! It's located near Dhoby Ghaut MRT station, or you can simply take the two shuttle buses that will be at Dhoby Gaut taxi stand! Do visit their facebook site for more information.

"Come down and take a look, fashion run-a-way is where beauty takes place."

2009-06-23T21:33:00.018+08:00

Seems like I’ve been going out every single day for the past few days, oh! correction, starting from my first day of holiday, and it’s all because of work, outing with friends, studying, spending the time with family and cousins and even, outside my corridor. And if I were to ever stay at home for even a day, I will start to feel very awkward to even …… erm, move? Maybe, just maybe, I will stay on bed the whole day without even waking up to go to the toilet. ((: hmm.

Okayy, I will not beat around the bushes and just go straight to the point. I’ll update on all of my outings cause that’s what I usually do, right. ((:

FRIDAY (19 June 2009)

When studying/project session turns out to be an outing. All of us were full of smilesss ((:
Blame Nina for that.

SATURDAY (20 June 2009)
I was supposed to be at the Zoo, standing at the entrance, tearing tickets from 8am till 6pm but instead, I found myself at Cineleisure with my bunch of lovelies at around 3.30pm. Skip that.
It’s been such a long time since I had this much fun with my beloved loveliesss plusss Durga Naidu. Omg. It’s been donkey years since I last met her and needless to say, she changed a lot which is equals to more prettier and less ‘keling’ minus her attitude and not forgetting her craziness which still remains within her. At first, I wasn’t even planning to meet them but when I came across B’s blog in the morning, I suddenly have the urge to just meet them simple reason because, they are my Happy Pills! Widest smileee ((: So first, went to buy the movie tickets to ‘drag me to hell’, walked and I really mean, WALKED cause I can feel my armpit sweating like crazy all the way from cine to tanglin for the flea market. Cabb-ed back to cine to catch the ‘god-damm scary sia’ movie. Went home alone at around 10pm cause the rest wanted to slacked at Gloria Jeans and because I have family day the following day.

SUNDAY (21 June 2009)
Had breakfast at Serangoon Tekka for Thosei with Bibik leha’s family, my all time favourite cousins. Headed to the Singapore Zoo cause I’ve got A LOT of free tickets. Spend around 4plus hours with the soarching sun there and head back to Bibik Leha’s home for a refreshing shower. Home-sweet-home at around 9.30 pm.

MONDAY (22 June 2009)Went out at a veryyy early morning time to meet Ella and Shahrul to support Nina’s audition at the Singapore Idol but everything turns out to be veryy disastrous. No elaboration needed. Ella and Shahrul, sshhusshhhhh. Discuss about CMB, went to support Rachel for Singapore Idol, and and, EVERYONE HAS GOT TO SEE THIS. ‘MUM, I ON TV!’ I’m smiling all the wayyy from the starting right to the ending of the interview with Gurmit Singh with cameras right in front of us and I feel so proud of myself! And maybe, my mum too! Home-sweet-home at around 6pm.

Tomorrow will be another full day outing with my bunch of lovelies, again! I can't wait!
Smilesss ((:

What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his cinderella?

2009-06-19T11:41:00.005+08:00

no smiles no fetching no calls no message no dinner no outing no hougang mall no fights no break-ups no holding hands no kissing no lot 1 no waiting no x-1 no shopping no anniversary no Honda no parent meet-up no jokes no hanging out no 11th story no pulling no pushing no shouting no vulgar words no thinking about you no buying clothes online no bitching no breakfast no lunch no cam-whore no sweets no ruffles no ben&jerry no random talks no shoulder to cry on no sending wrong messages no pizza no celebrating birthdays no star bucks no biting no left cheek kiss no right cheek kiss no forehead kiss no touch and go no punching no video calls no seletar dam no east coast no fighting for places no movies no jealousy no sulking no cries no fish&co no goodnight sleep no late night calls no good morning messages no appetite no companion at 5pm after his work no idea no annoying msn nudges no lazy weekends no falling asleep to massages no sharing of food drinks and everything no ugly smelly helmets no sisha no swimming no hugs no warm fuzzy feeling no stinky breath no sight of ugly crocs slipper no him to bring out when pay day comes no coca cola no redbull no borrowing no hari raya no new helmet no kids no singing over the phone no hurtful words no 9*86***7 no hand to salam no swallowing of blown kisses no this no that no everything no nothing no freaking idea why i'm putting myself through all these the entire morning no one no YOU.

How will I know the right way?

Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened. Take Care friend. (: i wish you well.

2009-06-18T14:29:00.011+08:00

It's funny to see how people react to some issues/things.
Spasm.

Thousand apologies for the lack of update. Didn't had much of time to hog on the lappy and think of what to pen down like literally pen down and not letting you people read some shits in screwthatchips :p

Today, I finally have the feeling of being in a holiday mood. Why? Cause starting from the first day of holiday, I’ve been working my ass of for 5 consecutive days and finally, I got 2 pathetic off days before resuming back to hell=work. -.- bummer.

In another hand, I totally forgot about school. Well I can confidently say 'school's out like finally.' But only for 3weeks, correct me if I'm wrong! Still, its a school VACATION people. Like hello? You get this only once in a while, stress free, no more thinking about projects. Okayy no, I think I have another UNDONE projects which have yet to be done before the deadline. Mind me, I'm abit giddy now and my mind's not functioning well.

I’ve been busy, busy, busy as a bumble bee and that explains about my life turning into a bitch. I've been too cranky and grumpy which isn’t a good sign.. mmm period. I don’t even have much time for myself. I’ve been thro and fro Bukit Batok to work on this stupid event. I’ve not been meeting up with old friends; Suriyanti, Huda, Wafi despite my holidays. I’ve been busy with my portfolio for photography, studies, test, family, friends, events, work and so much other things that’s making my holiday miserable.

If you wanna know something, it takes me a couple of hours to update this shit and I swear its eating my brain cells slowly.

Easy said, I am lost. Really, there's only ONE SOUL that knew about this and I can't bare to share them with the ones I usually use to share with. I don't feel like myself nowadays, I'm so dead, weak, and feeling all draggy to go out. I hate what I'm going through now.

Too many things in my mind and I swear I feel like breaking down and cry till the pain disappears. Sometimes, I think you don't deserve what you've been getting. I just find it so hard to comprehend my life cycle right now. Its in a mess.
Skip that.

Since Syed’s on his mission, I’m also on my mission. I’ve just started out doing this and I’m going to keep it a secret until one day I finally decided to blurt it out. I’m not going to tell anyone neither am I going to tell someone. Force me all out. I’ll take just months. Wish me luck.

This post is a little redundant I admit. I've no other to talk about and oh, thinking about pictures, I’ve got tons to update and so, here it goes. And yar, it’s not tonsss and it’s random. Outings plus birthday presents.

2009-06-16T20:09:00.008+08:00

ANIZAH'S EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.

I know, I know. It’s far far far too too late for me to blog about my 18th Birthday Celebration, but still, I just wanna say that 18th really has been a very memorable, sweet, fun and also enjoyable day for me. Really, it has. (: Special THANKS to all those who has put in a lot of effort to make my 18th an special one.

So first, let me start off with my first birthday celebration, which is on Friday, a day before my actual day. The first present I received is from Sakina, which is a toberlone chocolate. Upon walking to the canteen, some of my classmates, whom I really really really didn’t expect them to know when is my birthday, actually wished me a ’happy birthday’. And really, they surprise me just by doing that. Hee(: The second surprise which also happens in the same day comes from the-girl-whom-I-first-talk-to-on-my-first-day-of-school a.k.a Nurul Nabilla a.k.a Ella. I gave her the title of the ‘oh-so-suh-weettt’ friend because she is soo sweet to me on my birthday by baking for me a chocolate cake. (: So before the chocolate cake is cut, my SuperB IEH, being a SuperB sweet class, they sweetly sang me a birthday song in the canteen, feed me with cake and also wish me a very happy happy happy birthday a lot of times. (: Really, just by having them around really makes my birthday a more happening one. (:
Thank you so much IEH. You guys really makes my birthday an awesome one. Really, thanks you guys once again. ((:

Saturday, is when all the party started. (:
I was walking towards Cineleisure with Suriyanti to meet up with Wafi, Carol and Huda. While I was walking towards Cineleisure, I was stunned, shocked and surprised to see the three of them holding up this big board, standing side by side and shouting ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY’ to me by far. And really, I was having this mix feeling that cannot be describe when I saw them. So, after the talks, hugs, wishes and yada yada yada, wafi started the party by saying this, ‘okayy anizah, in order to get your birthday presents, you need to . . . . . . '

1) get 100 signatures from strangers

2) hug 10(5boys/5girls) strangers

3) get 5(3boys/2girls) people to feed you with a cake

4) get 2 big groups to sing you a birthday song

5) hold up a panties in the air and shout as loud as possible ‘today is my birthday, yeahhh!’

All, in the middle of cineleisure. Just, imagine that.
After all that has finally ended, I finally get my birthday presents, zinnia came to join, had dinner at LJS, cam-whored, slacked at Gloria Jeans and finally, to sisha for another surprise.
Reached sisha, I got another surprise from wafi yet again with a birthday cake, and also, my Superman. Craps craps and more craps before all of us headed home at around 1am. Many many thanks to Rizal for sending all of us safely back home despite having the 6 of us to squeezeee in your cute car. (: hee, thnaks rizal! (:

I’ll skip Sunday.

Monday, 15 June, I receive yet another present from my best friend, Shahrul Nizam and also another cute surprise present from Sakina. (: Hee, thanks you guys! I love you long time!

Wednesday, 17 June, I received yet another present from my beloved darling, Natasha. Soo sweet of you sayang. I love you long long okayy! ((:

Thursday, 11 June, all the April to June babies got sabo-ed form our beloved classmates for the ’you know, I know, IEH know’ thing. And worse still, I got sabo-ed by cakes, and that’s like the first time in my entire birthday celebration that I got sabo-ed by cakes from people. And I got that worse worse worse shit ever. Thanks you guys.

I still got about a 1001 pictures of celebration in school and not forgetting my birthday presents to be updated but as you know, I’m just plain lazy for that. So, I’ll make do with this first. (:

Pictures are all in random.

Lastly, I would like to give my special thanks to firstly, my Beloved SuperB IEH, Nazri’s Boy Band, Yansa and the gang, Muhammad Wafiuddin, Carol, Nurul Huda, Suriyanti, Zinnia, Imran, Rizal, Ella, Sakina, Shahrul, Natasha, cineleisure strangers, all those people who wishes me be it via msg, call or even face book and also, people who has made my 18th birthday an awesome and memorable one. Thanks you guys once again.
Ps: sorry if I had left out any names cause it’s really a lot I could say.

2009-06-06T14:22:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ((:

I've had my BIG suprise yesterday, im in for another BIG suprise again later and i can't wait for another one tomorrow.

stay tune folks.

2009-06-03T20:34:00.003+08:00

Happy Advance Birthday To Me. (:

A BIG THANK YOU with a very BIG BIG HUG to Nurshaheerah for the little yet thoughtful present. You really surprise me with that sayang. (:

I really didn’t expect it at all cause my birthday is like, 3 days away. But still, thanks soo very much for that. (: *hugsss*

And pleaseee, no sabo-ing on Friday. I can’t and don’t want to let anything bad happen to me. (:

Saw the word DIVA. It’s because, I always come late for school and that’s why the whole class labeled me a DIVA, cause DIVA is always late for everything. (:

So today, Nina went over to my house to do her project. Not long after she left, Superman called me up for dinner. Rejected his offer since I’ve already had my dinner with Nina at home. To my surprise, he is already on his way to my house. Had no choice but to accompany him to have his dinner at a nearby coffee shop near my house since he’s always craving for that fried keuy teow at Zilan. -.-

Reached my house, he had a small chat with my mum before we went to have his dinner. After he had his stomach filled, he sent me home, chatted with mummy and daddy for a while before he left to go for his night classes.

So now, here I am blogging while waiting for him to call me to talk about my birthday. (:

3 more days to go. (: happy and excited but I'm not going to give high hopes to myself.

2009-06-02T20:08:00.015+08:00

LIFE.

I haven’t been updating my blog religiously like I used to when I started blogging back then.
Reason being, I’m just plain lazy. Too lazy to even type anything here. Even triple lazy to think about what to type. Tsk.

Relationship wise, OH! did I mention that my Superman♥ has got a car of his own. And and, we DID NOT celebrate our 3 YEARS! And I’ve got nothing from him neither did he get anything from me. -.- Tsk. I don't like.

That's my irritating asshole. See his face.
And yesternight, ___________________________ ): whoopss!

So you might be wondering, how was school? School is triple okayy with superB IEH around except, the studies is killing my tracks for godness sake. I pray to God that one day or just someday the school canteen or one of the classes especially my class, will get burnt and college central would have to close down and make the students shift to another campus. Maybe throw us to a lively campus, cause Bishan is dead. So dead. So what I am trying to say is, SCHOOL SUCK MAJOR CHEESEBALLS.

And and, here I am here blogging when I am suppose to study for my EPL test which is coming this Thursday.
I didn't have a lot of time to do any studying (okayy, I just lied) so I played UNO with my brother cause is it's soo much more fun. Really, you guys sholds try it. ((:

Life has been a rollercoaster ride. But I'm glad too for I have my IEH♥ and not forgetting my Superman♥ to pick me up when I fall. I love you people long time!

I'm sleepy, I'm beat, I'm feeling so dead. I skipped having meals and I did not pick up any calls from just now.

Honestly, I have nothing more to pen down here.
Just suddenly my mind went blank.
I'm sleepy(again) (even though I’ve just slept for about more than 3hours just now) and I'm famished. Think I mentioned about it earlier on! But, heck.

School starts at 9 tomorrow instead of 8. An hour more to hibernate. Typical me. Sulk.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my bestfriend.

2009-05-20T20:55:00.006+08:00

Today, I went somewhere very very very very far, wearing and exposing my school uniform.

(embarrassed face insert here)

And finally, I had a good time talking and letting something out of my chest to my friends for what I’ve been keeping in my heart for sooo long.

2009-05-19T21:50:00.006+08:00

For the first time in my school days, I see my class (IEH) soo ENTHU into taking pics.
Especially the boys. Yes, the BOYS! WTF! The BOYS?!
One boy specifically ask people to take pictures of him doing flare.
Another one, posing.
Another one, tweece.
Another one, naughty boy’s face.
Another boy, his face.
Another boy, pictures of him holding a camera.
And the list goes on and on and on and on.
And yes, they all is, the BOYS.

And and, Superman sent me messages that makes me forgets my name for a while. Imagine that.
With him saying, ‘ hope we will never ever be separated with each other.'
‘ can’t I be sweet to you? You’re my only sayang. You are the best sayang.’
‘the more I think of you, the more I want to hug hug you.’
‘ later at home I feed you.’
When I ask him, ‘how are you.’ he said ‘not doing fine, I need you laa sayang.’
‘ worried about you cause you are my precious.’
And honestly I tell you, this is the first time in 3years he said that to me.
God, I’m all smilesss thanks to this super sweet stupid basterd. (((:

And I suddenly miss Muhammad Wafiuddin and Nurul Huda and not forgetting, Suriyanti.
Guys, I hate her for always being with them. Sucks!

2009-05-18T20:01:00.003+08:00

SUNDAY

Went out with my beloved Superman♥ to everywhere.
I’m too lazy to go into details but one thing I know for sure is that we really had a good time together even though he said something to me that makes me go all ___toots___ for a while. ((:
Hmm, luckily, I forgive him for that because he bought me the ‘Hot’ magazine and some crackers. Home-sweet-home at around 7plus after daddy calls to ask if I wants to join the family for dinner at Serangoon for Thosei. Rejected the offer because I still have not spend enough quality time with Superman♥. Went home, talk, joked, talked, play comp, talk and yada yada yada with him before he home-sweet-home at around 8.30pm to pack his things to go back to camp.

And and and, NURUL NABILLAH BINTE JUNAIDI IS THE SWEETEST FRIEND I CAN EVER HAVE/FIND/GET!

Screenshot from http://music-and-secrets.blogspot.com/

This is Anizah.
I've only known her for like a month so there's not much to say but she's still one of the very best buddies I have around.
She's very funny and I love the way she talk and describe everything.
It's really great.
Aku syg kau k.
Seriously. I look forward to having classes and sitting with you and talk crap all day long.
Kau gerek k.
Aku sukeeeeee :)
ILYSFM Nuranizah Binte Omar.

That's soo SWEET laa♥

2009-05-17T20:47:00.008+08:00

FRIDAY

The AWESOME FABULOUS FIVE.

At last, with my hard work of oh-so-countless-messages send to them, they finally agreed to meet up despite me having many many many many, oh, it’s countless obstacles I had to face just to bring us together, with one who had a probation problem and another one, bankruptcy.
A million thanks to me, myself and I for being such a god-damm-good Event Management student.

Smilesss((:
So first, it started of with me, a lazy girl, who is triple too lazy to take the ready-made public transport and who is also triple lucky to have a caring and kind-hearted sister who loves me so much to send me to Jalan Kayu using the family’s car.
Than, while on our way to Jalan Kayu, we saw this pitiful big boy sitting at the bus stop alone for I-don’t know-what, and being a good kind-hearted soul, I decided to let him have a ride in the car since both of us are going the same way; Jalan Kayu. And it’s after he sat beside me in the car than I started to realize that he is actually my friend; Muhammad Wafiuddin. ((:
So yar, my second stop of encountering and picking up another pitiful soul who is also waiting at the bus stop for I-don’t-know-what who also happens to be my friend; Ghazali is at Fernvale.

Reached Jalan Kayu, me, uddin and zali waited for about more than half an hour before the Fabulous Five is completed.

Talked, joked, ordered, eat, drink, talk, talk talk and more talk before finally all of us are too full to fit anymore food inside our cute little stomach. With lots of unfinished food on the table, me, Nurul and Uddin quickly washed our hands and took out the birthday cake and sing a loud birthday song which made head turns to look at us and join us in the singing , to the belated birthday boy; Imran.

Crap crap crap and more craps before all of us home-sweet-home at around 10plus since pretty panties and handsome hunk is sick and also not forgetting the probation boy who has and needs go home.

Lastly, me wishing Imran a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!

Girl girl’s tired. Will update about today, tomorrow. ((:

2009-05-13T13:41:00.004+08:00

For the first time after school re-opens, i skipped school. Yaii.
Or should i say, i'm clearing my leave early for school. Hees. ((:
Why? Plainly because, i just can't get my ass of my comfy bed. ((:

It started at 7 a.m when my alarm clock rings.

Why 7a.m? Because today, i wanted to feeling feeling come school earlyy and be on time. ((:

So much for that.

But when i wanted to lift my head up and hit the shower, i said to myself, '5minutes. Just another 5 short minutes', and bumm, i hit the sack again.
It was at 7.05 a.m when the second bell rings.

And that was when it all started.
From 7.05 to 7.30. To 7.35 to 8.00.
8.00?

Yes, 8.

I might as well skip my first lesson and sleep a while longer since it only lasts for an hour. ((:

And yes.

From 8.00 to 8.30 to 8.35.

And since i was a bit irritated with Rihanna's Disturbia song which is alarm clock music which keeps repeating for i-don't-know-when-will-it-stops, i decided to put a stop to my alarm clock. So, instead of snoozing it, i turned it off.

Confidently saying to myself that i can and will wake up in another 5minutes time for my second lesson.

My 5minutes went up till 9.55 and i only managed to wake up after receiving a call from Fabriyanshah telling me that the 3rd lesson will commence in another 5minutes time.

WTF -.-

So, being a good friend i am, i listen to my friend's advice and not go to school because he told me not to come since my school finishes early today which is at 2.

So here i am, instead of studying for tomorrow's test, i'm blogging my way to waste time. I cannot wait for the clock to hit 4.00 p.m cause I'll be meeting my bff for lunch at LJS despite just meeting her last Friday for swimming lesson. Why LJS? Don't ask me. It's a sudden craving. ((:

toodles((:

2009-05-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when you get too occupied in life, you'll fail to realise that despite the thousand of miles you've been out searching, the people who really love and care about you the most are the people standing right infront of you, the people you choose to blind out right from the very start.

I know I somehow betrayed this rusty website of mine like countless of times and I never get the hang of updating it daily, having all kinds of feelings each time I log in here but end up I'll go blank to pen down my thoughts.

On a happier a note, I've just got myself a new school bag.

Many many many thanks to my Superman♥ and also not forgetting, Nurul for the idea of buying the bag. (:

Life.
Been great.
School isin't my cup of tea anymore now except for having great friends around to cheer you up each time you're feeling all tensed. The module is cracking my brain up and killing those braincells. I think I fear about facing the EXAMS yet again. Ok this is not me but it came across my mind so I'll just pen everything down.

Lastly, to the bestest mummy one could ever have, a very HAPPY belated MOTHERS' DAY. Bought her gifts from the Body Shop as that is all I can afford from the pittance of a wage I earn every month. ):

2009-05-06T20:32:00.007+08:00

Awesome. Not.

Tired. Tired. Tired. Tired. Dead.
***

Labour Day was spent at Singapore Zoological Gardens,
selling rented; wagons, prams, parking coupons, locker.
Half an hour lunch plus standing for 6 long hours.
Missed; Sentosa outing, IEH, fun, laughter, Ella.
Sad, very very sad. )):

Half of my Saturday was also spent at Singapore Zoological Gardens;
(even though I was NOT SUPPOSED to go there at the first place) saying the same -.- greeting lines and, never will I forget the standing for 6 hours -.- , tearing tickets-.- , swiping cards -.- and also giving out the stupid ugly-looking bookmarks to kids -.-
I AM A HAPPY KID WITH BIG BIG BIG SMILEEE((: ON MY FACE ON SATURDAY BECAUSE I RECEIVE A BADGE FROM THE MANAGEMENT WHICH MEANS THAT IM GOOD AT DOING MY JOB. ((((: okayy, lame.
Another half of my Saturday was spent at religious class -.- and, home-sweet-home. ((:
***

Sunday was A HAPPY HAPPY DAY((:

Rizal.
Appointment with doctor. Rizal. Serangoon Thosei. Rizal. RX-1. Rizal. Cam-whoring. Rizal Rounding. Rizal. Rest. Rizal. Ice-cream. Rizal. AMK Hub; 17 Again. Rizal. Anugerah Muhammad Fabriyanshah. (???) Rizal. Dinner; Mad Jack. Rizal. Prepaid. Rizal. Cam-whoring. Rizal.
Rizal. Rizal. Rizal. Rizal. Rizal. Rizal. Rizal.

***

School spells F.U.N.

***

Met up with buyong and huda on monday @ j8.
Had kfc for dinner. Slacked @ coffee bean for awhile before me and buyong parted with huda.
88'd back home, and lady luck was with me inside bus((: Buyong was so green with envy.
Though it was merely a dinner meet up, it felt really good being able to catch up with you guys after 133455474755 months. Can't wait to meet the rest on saturday!
And don’t worry buyong, hopefully, we don't put you on airplane.
smilesss ((:
**copy and edited from http://www.french-mywords.blogspot.com/
Sorry buyong.

2009-04-29T19:54:00.005+08:00

It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.

It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

My day started off really sucky because i waited for the bus for a f.ing half an hour.

I'm sad because my phone was silent the whole day.

I'm angry because you didn't msg/call me.

I'm happy because no matter how busy I am with things, I'm always thinking about you.

*smilesss ((:

And i'm going head over heels crazy over this.

*EYES WIDE OPEN*

*JAW DROP*

*DROOLING*

Total hawtness!

2009-04-28T20:41:00.009+08:00

I'M A HAPPY GIRL ((:

Okayy, so, after much much much much much much consideration, I finally gave the thought of retrieving back my blog with the help and of course, many many many thanksss to Elaine Yeo ((:

and and also, to thick-skinned Ella who forced me to open up a blog to talk about her.

Hees((:

Soo much much, many things have passed and of course, I can’t possibly type everything down here.

So I guess, I’ll briefly describe what happen to me after my last entry which is on the 13th of March 2009.

So kental, yes I know((:

Okayy okayy,I can’t possibly remember everything so I’ll put all in point forms in random order okayy ((:

- celebrated BFF birthday, S, at Han’s River and night safari with zakk and afifah.
- celebrated another BFF birthday, W, by surprising him with a cake outside his house.
- went to ikea with H and ate a lot of hotdogs! ((:
- kept eating ben&jerry after work with Rizal.
- got into ITE college central Bishan with Event management as my course.
- made friends with Ella cause she’s the first one whom I talk to during my first day of orientation.
- had family day
- no friends outing
- I met Megan Lim Xing Hui and I went crazyyy over her. I miss her like F laa.
- I worked at the Converse and Everlast Fair which was held in Tampines and for the first time, I stand for 11hours non-stop hits for seven days straight -.-
- celebrated 2years10months
- managed to work for 8 days a month, finally ((:
- went to expo sales
- went for emergency protocol at work
- celebrated 2years11months
- fight, make up, fight, make up, fight
- I got in to a class which never fails to make my day.

A class that ROCKS just like my 3A4.

*smiless((:

Okayy, i'm BRAIN DEAD now so, I'll end with pics, pics and more pics.

Gosh, I MISS HIM LORR.

And he didn't msg me the whole day today.

Sad or what! ))':

2009-03-13T19:36:00.012+08:00

A proper update, *I guess. ((:

***

I'm back from my short trip for about 4days ago.

All that i can say about this trip is, dot dot dot.

Nashrudin is trying too hard to be nice and so, he send my whole family to the train station by car.

*Awww, how sweet (:

Still, a million thanks to him. (:

Reached the train station, bb was being kind enough to fry chicken nuggets and gave it to us.

*Awww, another sweet bastard. (:

The train ride was all along not pleasing. It was like SHIT!

Cockroaches was everywhere, at every single place, all the time.

Luckily i have my 'cockroaches killing partner' with me, Shahridah. (:

Still, both of us were still disgusted by it.

And and, I don't even get to sleep a wink in the train laa. Sad or what! ):

Reached KL, the rest of the journey, i would say, is HISTORY. No shopping, no nice food, no pillow, no bed, no proper toilet, no fan (except for one in the room), no TV, not even a radio, no hanger, no wardrobe, no chair, no water(not even plain water!), NOTHING! And and, it not even a proper house laa. Goshh, imagine that! It's worse than a kampong. Urghh.

***

The next day after we've reached Singapore, I'm down with a terrible headache. I'm having sore throat. My voice sounded like a 'rockstar', sometimes when I'm talking, not even a voice could be heard from me. Pathetic, i know. (: I can't stop coughing. It'll go on till i-don't-know-when-will-it-stop. I don't even get to taste anything that i ate, everything is tasteless. Even a chili padi. I'm having rashes, a BAD one. Everything just suck, so suck. And because of all this, i couldn't go out. I couldn't even meet my bff. ):

***

I wanna go shopping. I've got a long list of things to buy but, I'm going broke. ):
***

♥

I wanna have a proper date with my bff. I wanna take lots and lots and lots of pictures with him like we used to, and go everywhere with him, but he is always so busy lorr. Tsk. ):

***

I wanna go out with my friends. I miss miss miss them. <33>

I'm giving a careful thought of whether or not should i do extensions, again. Hmm.

Lastly, I'll post pictures on my KL trip realll soon. ((:

*Cheers (:

2009-03-12T14:53:00.004+08:00

A quick update for a special friend (:

♥♥♥
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY!
Wishing you another wonderful year of happiness and joy that never ends.
Love you <33

2009-03-06T18:31:00.004+08:00

Yes, THREE more hours to go and I'm out of Singapore (:
Luckily, I'm done packing. (*i think so)
Thanks Huda for the *sweet msg. Hahas ((:

And, I got to meet the bf later.

I'm gonna miss him <33

Okayy, I'm out dot

2009-03-05T16:40:00.002+08:00

For you;

My Love♥♥♥

Gosh, I’ve yet to pack for tomorrow’s gateway.
Mum’s gonna SCRREEEMMMMMM for sure.
I’ll be back with pics ((:

Take Care bf.

2009-03-04T00:06:00.011+08:00

Sunday, 1 March 2009

For the first time after two weeks of not working, I was like a stupid girl.I forget how to greet, what to say, what to press, and to sum up everything, I don’t even know what to do.
Okayy, I won’t elaborate on this because I will only make myself look stupid.

If I were to be a terrorist, I would place the biggest and the most explosive bomb inside the corporate office first because they fucking delayed my February pay till next month which is, April!
Urggghhhhh! Fuck the management in Zoo!
Bye bye shopping! )):

Monday, 2 March 2009

I met my Army Boy on Monday and he made me wait for him for almost an hour!
So rude and so ungentleman like an asshole.
We had dinner at Gelare and after that, he send me home.
I decided to take his picture before he sent me to my doorstep because I think he looks hot in the Army uniform. ^^
I don’t want to take his face because I think that he’s not handsome which means that he’s ugly like a monkey plus a koala bear. ((:

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

Went on a job hunting with Huda and it just sucks.
So much of Huda giving me high hopes by telling me that they need people for borders and crumpler!
Before proceeding out of Wheelock, we sat at Borders and read some magazines and even cam-whored in that so called, ‘library.’ ((:
After that, since we had no other plans, we decided to window-shopped the whole town.
We even cycled in the middle of Orchard Road! How embarrassing can that be! And I can’t believed that I cycled faster then Huda! Hahas ((:
See, I’m not that fat. ((:

2009-02-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

No words could describe how pissed i was when i opened up my roster. Grrrrrrr.

Can you imagine that. I'm not working for the next two weeks, AGAIN! This is equivalent to me, not working for ONE WHOLE MONTH!

Sad or what. ):

Fuck recession but triple fuck fuck fuck plus double fuck fuck that Zooooooooo!

Okayy, enough said.

I'm lucky that I've accepted the job that Ghazali offers.

I'm happy and proud of myself so, no regrets.
So what if I block a week off my schedule. Who cares?
And also, I'm trying my best to find a new job.

Soon, pleaseee.

And I'm not glad that i'm working tomorrow, for once.

♥
That’s my sickening ass and he is sad because I scolded him for (I forgot what).
Yesterday, We had popeye for our late lunch and went to Bugis to get some stuff.
Halfway there, my stomach felt bloated and he even said that my stomach looks as if I’m pregnant because it looks so BIG. [?!?]
Went home and so did he ((:

2009-02-27T13:06:00.006+08:00

O.O
I look FAT.
And i miss eating @ Fish & Co.

I'm blogging because, he's sleeping. -.-
Yes. He's sleeping soundly (cause i can hear him snoring) while I'm waiting patiently for him to wake up and go shopping with me. (:
Seems like eons since i last did some serious damaged to my wallet.
So, hopefully today, i could find something nice for myself. ((: Hee.

I was watching some videos on YouTube when i realised that I haven't been buying movie tickets since the beginning of the year. Pathetic or what?

And I don't understand why some people just have to be (*insert word here*)
So what if I LOVE facebook. You got a problem over there?

You were my best, and will still be.

2009-02-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

My boyfriend is an irritating basterd bitch ass jerk knnbccb.

I just felt like killing him and let him die an uglyy and brutal death!

Urrrgggghhhhh.

Asshole asshole asshole asshole asshole, mothertoottt!